Monday, June 09, 2008

AYU pwns 08

I'm sorry I haven't been updating.. honestly I have a lot of entries in draft.. also, I have 2 other blogs I frequent.. so you can always check those if you don't see any updates here. The links are down on the right navigation.. right under the exits back to me, my 2nd and 3rd blog.


And a token of my apology:

Ayumi Hamasaki High Quality 2008 Calendar Scans :) ..(w/o cover)

Labels: ayumi hamasaki, life, updates

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Oh what?.... Again?

Yep.. that's right.. in addition to this post, I have created yet ANOTHER online blog, that happens to be at Xanga.com. D: Dammit, why can't you all just have an account here?! Now I gotta mange 3 blogs.. and I tell ya, I think both of the new ones will just turn out like this, tired and ranty with no one reading. How unfortunate. I feel like a super boring person who has to result in blogging about my feelings and everyday life because nothing interesting happens, so I find a way to make normal things over the top and shit. *sob* Well screw you if you think that! xD

Goodnight~ school life tomorrow. Maybe something normal will happen and I can come blog about it :D

Labels: life, updates

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Managing 2 blogs?? ._.

Yep.. that's right. I finally took the initiative... OMG! I spelled initiative right!! :D

*ahem*

I know I never mentioned anything about getting another blog, but I'd been thinking about it ever since I got this account. I'd been thinking recently how my term as a Junior was coming to an end.. and I had planned on getting a new account else where as a senior.. just to get started on my 'College Blog'. But with so many people I know over at LJ, that's right, I got a Live Journal account, I figured I might as well now.

I don't plan to delete this account. I love this blog.. I log online a lot more here than any other site. But my original plan was just to have more readers, and since LJ has a vast amount of communities and members to interact with, it seemed well fit.

I was contemplating for at least an hour over what my url should be.. My first idea was to have the same as this one. But it's already long and at LJ it would have been longer, so I didn't go with it. Then I was just gonna use sustained, but someone had it. So I liked Crea a lot, Ayumi's side name, but I didn't want it so plain.. eventually I ended up using Uraayu, the first photo book I'd seen by Ayumi and with the most meaningful pictures. But to me it was also revolved around indifferentness.. so I stuck with it.

Link to me there, please! Even though it's kinda dead for now..
Poine @ LJ :)

Crap.. seems I can't take icons from member's there anymore xD

Labels: life, updates

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Jason Chan + Update = [♥]

Halloween's not until two weeks from now, but yesterday marked the 1 month period for my layout, plus I didn't go to school today, so I was tempted to change it :] Up until Halloween i'll be posting pictures and artwork of anything pertaining to Halloween. Cosplay included. x)

This is what I have so far because my mom rushed me off the computer.. it might be changed right now, or the same.. but it's not staying like this.. gotta edit it :]

So on with the talented Jason Chan's World of Darkness artbook, which one of the pictures are featured in the layout header. Yep, all about Vamps! And also some of his recent work. :3 Warning NOW.. if Vampires aren't your thing, I suggest you not see the pictures =/

Labels: art, events, updates

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Enter Synchronocity @ T.S.O

Hey everyone! A new version of TSO has been updated. Now with Navigation! :] My last layout was actually up much longer than it was suppose to be.. so yeah. Hope you enjoy it~! Erm.. I maybe be changing the opening page quite often. With update notices, pictures and songs.. maybe videos too. Since you can't go back to the opening page.. I may put a link up in my links section later.. or something... i'll see later.
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Gotta go now, as I have to edit some pictures and later i'm going to the mall and the movies with friends. A lot of people wanna see Halloween.. but I really don't. If they talk me into it, I might. But I rather not waste my money =/

C YA!!! ~*(^w^)*~

[EDIT]
So! Saturday September 15th 2007! I was suppose to go see Halloween with my friends but we ended up seeing Rush Hour 3 instead.. so late. I had tons of fun with my friends. Omg.. I love them so much. But i'm afraid of both of them.. they're psycho o_o... lol.. seriously. But.. I always feel lucky yet uneasy having crazy outgoing friends. Because one, they're always real and honest, you're never bored because they're ALWAYS entertaining, they're always the most caring, but you never know what they'll do next because they're too carefree.. and that's scary. So serious.. like today I would of never known I could of gotten banned from Macy's because my friend was harassing people.. and I never would of thought he was serious when he told me he was gonna do it. How dangerous, lmao~ x)

So the movie was good. Only two major things I did not like! First, the giant Chinese guy. I can't stand how in the entertainment business they use people with deformities or those who just aren't normal as a joke. It's not funny okay? It's pathetic and sad. And those who think it's just piss ass funny just don't know. Seriously.. it urks my nerves.
Second, the missing endings to the small stories within the movie. Nothing was finished. They never showed what happened to the French Chinese guy.. the Chinese Girl.. they didn't explain things good enough, ugh.. how annoying. It's like they rushed just to get to the end. But like it said, overall it was fine.

Um.. before we went to the movies we stopped at the mall. I saw two people from school, a girl from my middle school, and Brian that went to my high school in 9th grade after the movie. I miss him. Tried to act all confused with his girlfriend around.. oh whatever. We can play the lost memories game if you want to.

During the movie we didn't want to leave to go and get refills, another popcorn, nachos and gummies, so we said we'd just go out to eat. x) After the movie we hung out at the game section spending our bills on tokens. We realized we didn't have enough to go to a restaurant, so we just went to a fast food place. But we still wanted money left over so we all decided on Hans 2, my former Chinese classmates' restaurant. But it was all said that she left to go back to Oklahoma. When we went inside.. we saw a girl that looked like her.. but then she didn't. From behind.. her height and everything.. and the way she wore her hair. But she didn't have her blond highlights in the back, and her bone structure was different. Her voice was also deeper and she seemed to speak English clearer. I'd like to say, "well of course it was her.. she just changed over the summer and got her eyebrows arched." But she seemed so different. I just want to forget about her.. because even if we were close like we were before, there's nothing that can happen. Her parents won't let her go anywhere away from work, have fun.. and since she's not at school anymore, she's working full time, so I can't even call her to see how she's doing. What's the point? What can you really do with a friend you can't talk to, can't see outside of work, or can't have fun with and go places?? Even when we did go out, she had to go shopping for her mother. The only thing I could do is visit her at work. But then what? She doesn't do anything, so it'd be pointless for me to ask her what's up with her or how she's doing. I still don't know anything about her. Ugh.. I need to learn Chinese. -_-;

After we received our food, we waited at the bus stop and saw a school friend. One of my friend's mom just decided to take us all home. ;]
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Labels: life, updates

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Okay.. disregard that x)

Lol.. i'm better now. I guess I was wrong when I said I have nothing to help me cope.. music does still work.. and solitude. It's kinda funny then, huh? I complain about being alone, but it's being alone that helps me stay in line :]

I feel totally rejuvenated and completely new. What did it? While I was crying I went to the bathroom to blow my nose. The window was open and I realized how hot it was.. then I realized how I didn't see any animals around like I usually do. Then I heard some construction outside.. I realized, no matter how sad or torn up I get, lives will still go on. People will die, still make money, build, hurt, love.. so it doesn't really make a difference for me. It's totally useless to give up. It's totally useless to mope around and worry about other people because it's so many happy people in the world or people having it worse. So I realized, since no body else cares.. I HAVE to care about myself. Because if I don'.. life will still go on.. and my life would have been a waste of time :D

Omg, i'm so glad I think like that, xD I would of done killed myself by now if it wasn't for my thought process.. I thank my mother, lol.

And about the animals.. animals really do make me happy... so after I regained my pride.. I thought about how it would be if I were a Veterinarian. xD I know it's like.. REALLY random.. but yeah.. I don't know. At least it's something to take it into consideration, haha. :P
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Anyway.. also since I stayed home from school and needed a change.. as you can see I updated my layout for the month :]

Labels: life, updates

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Summer is almost over..//♥

AH HAH!! I finally messed with Lyla's code long enough to get a blog how I always wanted.. disappointing? Wanted a background.. prolly can meddle with it.. problem is, way too tired now.. later. But many thanks to the sweet sweet Ly who took her time to make the css code.. even though I had to change it.. and I can't get comments anymore.. :/


So.. I haven't posted anything about NANA Day yet.. how inconvenient of me. Well, i've been having health problem.. and....*ahem* female related ones too.. *COUGH* Ahhem.. >__> So yeah, been at an all time LOW lately. Plus, my mom and aunt are starting to bug me a lot more than usual. Bah bah.. stress increasing.. and school's about to start back. Oh, I was just having a conversation with Kari about how we use to act crazy with Natalie in 7th grade, we realized that was in 2004.. and now we're juniors in High School.. omg, I was JUST in 8th grade saying, "High school is gonna SO rock!" I'm already in my last two years! D: No!!! I'm so old... xD No way, i'm an infant in life.. but yeah, it's just weird.. going by all too fast. Crap.. now I regret saying, "I wish I was ALREADY in college." I hate regretting stuff.. especially when I thought I was so sure the first time. x(

The only thing really keeping me on end from not going berserk, is knowing I'm suppose to be having that Camp Broadway thing going on 15 days from now. But i'm not sure if i'm going. I wanna go because I want something else new and exciting to happen this summer. If it doesn't, lord knows i'm gonna freak and cry and smash things, xD Because.. everything has been such a disappointment.. and i've been literately sulking all summer. If something awesome doesn't happen to me, i'm just gonna skip school.... er... for a week.. >_> Or else they'll kick me out and put my mom in jail, but yeah, skip school. x)

Anyway, i'll post my NANA post when I post it. Sorry.. oh! And Oranje, I did promise you i'd have it up.. but sorry I couldn't keep that. Unfortunate things happened and I really haven't had the strength and patience.. as it will take a lot of time to post that.. SO many pictures, and SO much to type. T____T I've actually been just sleeping all day everyday after NANA Day. I'm just so drained.. ugh, I also hate how I didn't do your fan signs yet either. Don't get on me.. I already know how many times I put that off T.T; I'm sorry 186,967,756 times!! Lol... too lazy to make a bigger number. x3

Off topic: speaking of summer(title).. see my icon? That's Miki Fujimoto.. FORMER Morning Musume member ;________; Her and Yossie (Hitomi Yoshizawa) have graduated!! *sobs* it's so jacked up.. the group is not the same without them! Sure Reina and Sayumi and Eri and Risa are still there, (couldn't care less about the rest), but it's too empty. :( And then they were replaced with two Chinese exchange students. Don't know how that's gonna work out. GAH!! It's like when Bou left An Cafe and got replaced by those losers!! Actually the two new Chinese members seem awesome, but they don't know Japanese.. o__o?? Anyway, i'm tired of these artists bailing. -_-;;

Speaking of artists bailing on stuff, Ayumi ain't engaged anymore!! She broke it off with Tomoya (from TOKIO) because she said they're love was more like sibling love than a lovers love. -___- Stupid hoe! (okay, I love ayumi, but yeah. >.>) She's never gonna be with someone better.. not for a long time anyway. They were seeing each other for 6 years, and then they decide to get married, sheesh, I guess it did evolve into a friendship type relationship! And I wanted to see her wedding and wedding dress! Crap.. -_-; How disappointing.

Leaving now, got beauty sleep on my calendar today, xD
As if...

Labels: asian, ayumi hamasaki, events, life, updates

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Goodbye Days// An Cafe♥

Sooooooooo. Ever since the tragic up and coming leave of Bou from Oshare-kei group An Cafe (Antique Cafe), i've paid more attention to them than ever! Honestly speaking, at first out of like 10 songs I listened to, I barely liked 3. But now getting to know them and hearing more of their songs, I like 3 more. x) BUT! I have more respect for them now, and I like their group. I enjoy watching them perform and hang together. I like their weird but stylish style and childish behavior. Hell, i'd love An Cafe is Bou didn't leave.. *bleached blonde that looks like a girl* ...... yes.... it's not a girl o.o But i'm not too surprised. Put it this way, at least he doesn't look like a guy wearing make-up and skirts and heels, and poofy dresses, with long blond hair.. at least he's cute enough to pull of a chick, yes? Plus anyway, that's right. He's adorable. Anyway, since Bou left, for his own personal reasons, two new members arrive. Now first off, I liked Antic because they had 4 members. Not 5, 6 or 7+ like all the other Jrock bands. That sickens me. Especially when their style isn't that different.. unless it's Gazette.. because Reita has a friggin' wash cloth across his face... but he can do that, he's hot. Continuing, now there's nothing friggin special about them. Doen't Bou know HE was the one separating them from even being labeled with the others? Ah, but he has to do what he has to.. hopefully he'll come back. OMG, i'm just rambling.

Now pics and stuff~ [enlarge photos!] ;3

Labels: an cafe, asian, ayumi hamasaki, updates

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

May Flowers

Lots of flowers. My school Librarian passed. No one knows how. o.o It's so crazy.. I just got a lot of text messages on my phone about it, and then they said something about it at school. It's so sad.. I can't believe he's gone.. I wonder what happened. Oh, I won't ever see him anymore. He was such a kind man. Ending the year like this, it's so not right. How terrible. I still can't believe this...

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Update didn't come as I expected. x/I didn't even try out Lyla's layout :/ I'm so lazy x( I'll probably be changing the songs a lot, or maybe even the layout, because it's not right and i'm very picky :P So I MAY not be posting the screen cap... Crap, I have no idea. But I love this song. Don't you? Thanks a lot to Soyoung for having it for me to hear. I like a couple of Korean songs lately ;3

Went to the doctor today.. all these allergic reactions, swelling, itching, stinging, my tonsils.. turns out ALL THIS TIME..(two weeks) I've had Strep Throat -_- What the hell?! I've been eating ice cream, dancing after school, GOING to school, flouncing around, kissing people, eating sweets? No wonder these reactions have been getting worse. Damn, I think I may have gotten Rachel and Keoni sick o.O I was hugged all over them last week, and then they both came to school sick that Monday.. Why the hell do people come to school sick AND contagious?! That's even worse, not that you already are a big disease bomb. Now, i've got my reasons. I didn't know I was sick. Hell, I felt fine minus the side effects. x] Speaking of that, at the doctor the nurse drew my blood for THREE tubes. My arm almost went numb! Why did she need so much of it?! Anyway, I hardly think my strep throat is the cause of all this. We'll soon find out by Friday.

Oyasuminasai~

Labels: events, life, school, updates

Monday, April 30, 2007

Blah.. update~ x]

April 28th, I went to see Disturbia.. it was good.. more stalking and romance than disturbing things, but.. oh well.. way better than When A Stranger Calls. :D We were gonna see The Invisible or some other movie afterwards, but a fair was outside the mall and we walked over there. By the time we got back, if we saw another movie, when it ended it would have been like 1 a.m and I swore I would tape the last episode of Eureka Seven for Areku, so we walked around a bit before going home. Speaking of that.. it ended so GAY. x/ Eureka was very pretty... but it was still Gay -__- And the Nirvash is a girl?!?! Not just a girl, but the voice the speaks at that end of every episode?! How disappointing.. how very very disappointing. Less disappointing than Dewi killing himself..... No, worse. Another anime that's a better wait with a boring ending. It needed more explanation.. And like two episodes before I think, I DO NOT like how they killed all those people.. when those things fell and blew everything up? It was too sad. ;__;

When I got home my mom fixed me this AWESOME Panini sandwich.. it's an Italian grilled cheese sandwich that has sort of a waffle design in the bread from how you cook it. But actually it's a brand of grill made specifically for making these sandwiches. My aunt just bought my mom one for a pre-mothers day gift, so she's been making them ever since. xD A usual one has squash, cheese of course, onions, tomatoes and bell peppers.. for it's like a vegetable grilled cheese.. but my mom left out the bell peppers and squash and added honey turkey and lettuce because my aunt and her ate it up. >> But it was still delicious! :3 Speaking of nice dishes....

DEWI!! Never sent me the foods from your Home Econs. Class.. =S That's alright, princess. I found the ones I wanted :)

o.<... Anyway, as you see, I added a label list. This is for some entries I might put up in particular. Like magazine scans, music, lyrics, videos, cosplay, etc. :) That would be all..

Labels: anime, asian, life, Reina Tanaka, updates

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

時夏時間来るか?? x[

[Mood:] Angry and confused
[Listening to:] Isn't it Beautiful(Suteki da Ne) by Ritsuki Nakano

SUMMER TIME WHEN WILL YOU COME? --

私は従ってうんざりする性交の病人、そうある。 実際に、私は私のお母さんにとても疲れ、私の生命の皆いる。誰も私のようではない、物はI偽りなく愛私を常に言うことがわからないし、断念しない。 そして皆私は従ってに近いあるならない。私は実際にその恐ろしいか。 その悲しいおよび病気か。 私はなぜこうすれば扱われ続けるか。事はなぜどうしても方法私によってが今度ばかりはほしい行くことができないか。 私は私がそれを失おうと思っていることを誓う。

I am so fucking sick, so fed up.. really, I am. Tired of my mom and everyone in my life. The ones I truly love do not understand me or always abandon me.. and everyone else just isn't close to me. Am I really horrible? That pathetic? Why do I continue to be treated this way? Why can't things just go the way I want for once? Why must I be surrounded by such low life people? Who hate and criticize me for nothing? Why must I be judged and not reasoned with? Why do people keep doubting me and putting me down like I just don't mind? They are THAT insensitive! These people.. they're suppose to be friends! And I can't find new ones because everywhere I go, every bodies the same. And no one won't except me.. they just try to change me and mold me into how THEY want me to be. Fakers! All of them. I wish they would all go away..

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Damn! I never knew how much people liked my music, I was making a new playlist and uploading songs on Imeem. So I went through my own music section and saw about 30 new comments i've never seen before, it was weird for me. All of them were saying, "Oh! Thanks so much for uploading this! I love this song! Can you e-mail it to me?! Here's my e-mail, thanks!" or "This song is pretty awesome! E-mail it to me okay?" -_-;; It was like 10+ email addresses in every comment, xD The funny thing about it is, some of them won't be getting it :0
The playlist I made I put on this page :) It's a classical kinda mellow theme.. >> Not at first, but there's a lot of those songs.. since i'm feeling so crappy. But they're all nice songs. Peaceful they all are :)

Labels: life, song/ lyrics, updates

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Okay GO!// Wincy @ ILA

The top picture used for this blog layout was made for an example by a huge true and skillful fan of Ayumi, Winci of I Love Ayu.com. :) I always look forward to her artwork. She gets down every little detail used in the original picture in her artwork. This one being for the month of April. I also look forward to the quotes she uses or tiny poems in every picture. Wonder what she's gonna do for the month of May. Very good isn't it??

Labels: art, ayumi hamasaki, updates

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☆Photo Of The Moment

Strawberry Daiquiri + Lime Even though it is the season for big alcoholic celebration, 21st coming up, this summer was the very first time I had a drink at the bar. This wasn't the first, a few lines of ignited shots were, lol, but this was one especially made for me and my friend by the bartender at the end of the night~ I say very nice touch to the end of that part day, and a happy 21st birthday to me from Ai-Tune Karaoke x3

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