Thursday, April 26, 2007
My tonsils suck >_0
Yesterday was the worst..Catherine was already getting on my nerves like HELL and I didn't wanna go to school that day. I was already fed up with her, when Jessica decided to come up to my school! *sigh* I don't need to explain, just know that's the worst thing that can happen. Especially when I'm having a day where I don't care what I look like.
Today on the other hand, I was looking forward to school. (actually the end of school) After school was rehearsal.. and Ms. Adams was brining a feast for us! This was because she was truly FINALLY finishing the casting call. She brought in the cast from the original play from Chicago, San Diego, California, Jamaica, New York, Boston, Massachusetts, and Manitoba, Canada! We were gonna preform in front of them! And the person who's part we all play were gonna talk to us one on one, and they were gonna give us pointers. Afterwards we were all gonna eat together. I was so excited about it.
Before I went to bed, Keoni called me to affirm I was definitely coming and seeing how much food they needed. So I hung up, watched Shin Chan, and went to sleep. I woke up at 6 a.m, which is rare for me.. I swallowed.. and felt a lump in my throat. I kept swallowing and it wouldn't go away. When I finally woke up, I went in the bathroom and looked at my throat in the mirror. It looked normal but it felt like I had a freaking ice cube in my throat! I woke up my mom and she called my nurse.. she said I couldn't get an appointment until May because we just switched doctors. I was freaking out because I could hardly swallow.. and the nurse said I couldn't eat any dairy, bread, meat or anything solid. My mom gave me some medicine and I went to sleep. To SLEEP! On the day of my dreams! My fucking tonsils got swollen! (actually just the left one) When I got up, I sounded like a bird and every time I breathed out my mouth, it sounded like a dying cat. T.T And, Whitney called me to tell me that project for Biology that was worth 5 tests grades, is due tomorrow, and I don't have my book.. ;__;
Why God?! I just know tomorrow will be terrible. I can just feel it. u___u
Sowing Season - Brand New
Album: The Devil and God are Raging Inside of Me
This album and song are so relevant to me right now. As if the lyrics and music are just there to state how I feel. Couldn't of said any of it better myself. I remember I was walking down the street in little 5 points' outside mall..you know where all the stores are outside instead of in a building? Well I saw a shirt I liked and I was already running late..(was suppose to meet some friends up the street at a carnival) but I remember staying in there much longer listening to this song on their radio, I absolutely loved it, and that's how I discovered this band :]
Was losing all my friends
Was losing them to drinking and to driving
Was losing all my friends and I got them back
I am on the mend
At least now I can say that I am trying
And I hope you will forget the things I still lack
Yeah
Is it in you now?
To bare to hear the truths that you were spoken
Twisted up by knaves
In a trap for fools
Is it in you now?
To watch the things you gave your life to broken
You stoop and build them up with worn out tools
Yeah [Instrumental Chorus]
Nothing gets so bad
A whisper from your father couldn't fix it
Your whispers like a bridge, he's a river span
Take all that you have
and turn it into something you were missing
Somebody threw that brick
And shattered all your plans
Yeah [Instrumental Chorus]
Time to get the seeds into the cold ground
It takes a while to grow anything
Before its coming to the end yeah
Before you put my body in the cold ground, take some time to warm it with your hands
Before it's coming to an end, yeah
It's coming to an end
Do you miss the blend
Of colors she left in your black and white field
Do you feel condemned just being there?
I am not your friend
I am just a man who knows how it feels
I am not your friend
I am not your lover
I am not your family
Yeah [Instrumental Chorus]
Time to get the seeds into the cold ground
It takes a while to grow anything
Before it's coming to the end yeah
Was losing all my friends and I got them back
I am on the mend
At least now I can say that I am trying
And I hope you will forget the things I still lack
Yeah
Is it in you now?
To bare to hear the truths that you were spoken
Twisted up by knaves
In a trap for fools
Is it in you now?
To watch the things you gave your life to broken
You stoop and build them up with worn out tools
Yeah [Instrumental Chorus]
Nothing gets so bad
A whisper from your father couldn't fix it
Your whispers like a bridge, he's a river span
Take all that you have
and turn it into something you were missing
Somebody threw that brick
And shattered all your plans
Yeah [Instrumental Chorus]
Time to get the seeds into the cold ground
It takes a while to grow anything
Before its coming to the end yeah
Before you put my body in the cold ground, take some time to warm it with your hands
Before it's coming to an end, yeah
It's coming to an end
Do you miss the blend
Of colors she left in your black and white field
Do you feel condemned just being there?
I am not your friend
I am just a man who knows how it feels
I am not your friend
I am not your lover
I am not your family
Yeah [Instrumental Chorus]
Time to get the seeds into the cold ground
It takes a while to grow anything
Before it's coming to the end yeah
Labels: song/ lyrics
(Luv Sic) version 2
Love Sick = Luv Sic version 2 by Shing02 w/ Nujabes
I don't really know what version it is.. but I know I like the other better.. I just like this one because of the deep lyrics, and the beat is nice :) Some parts I don't really like, as i'm not really a fan of hip-hop. J-hip hip more than regular.. Nujabes, Epik High, The Heartsdales, Soul Head, and some others are an exception. But this song is still good.
* Lovesick like a dog with canine sensitivity
developing this new theory of relativity
connecting our souls resting in captivity,
positive life sacrifice what it is to me
our history, only a quarter of a century
reality, sitting on the shoulders of our chemistry
see ain’t no mystery, the colours that we mix will set the mind free,
let the blind see beyond harmony!
breathe life into dead space blow away all clouds of doubt
new territory we determine to be
everything a safe haven is supposed to be
now it might seem distant but the time is near
when our thoughts take off and split the atmosphere
pure sound waves travel semi-infinitely,
plus I’ll see you there utmost definitely!
* ’cause the beat plus the melody makes me speak of l.o.v.e. eloquently, so evidently
’cause the beat plus the melody makes me speak of l.o.v.e. eloquently, so evidently
* good gracious, every process has a genesis and ends with a revelation
god bless this opportunity for me to find a voice
for some words that have waited for way too long
low wages, small tips on the avenue
never wasted, all hits for a revenue
haven’t you heard the news lately?
seems we’ve been living for sometimes in a purgatory
but yo, I thought I knew what a love song sound like
but I felt a warmer tune in the sunlight
I could still hear it in the room past midnite,
gotta move, take a solo cruise in the moon light
sometimes I do forget , oh how much we could ease the lives we lead
if we learn to let go, the reins that we hold
return to our souls, and the spirit let flow
so you see, upon everyday faced there’s a million shades to express definition of grace
but the method I choose my prerogative,
there’s so much love in me I got to give!
* ’cause the beat plus the melody makes me speak of l.o.v.e. eloquently, so evidently
’cause the beat plus the melody makes me speak of l.o.v.e. eloquently, so evidently
* oh how I could write a book on how you make me feel,
but how about this song that I wrote for you?
what I feel like… I wanna put my trust in these simple words
for you to feel what I’m saying, what you feel like?
reminisce about the little episodes that we shared together?
remember the time that you told me in the cold night,
to relax when all I knew was to hold tight
remember the time that I spoke to a crowd in a full house and realized that you was my ace?
I was the joker on the stage singing the blues
all eyes on me and had nothing to prove
but yo, I thought I knew what a diamond shine like
but I felt a sharper love in the limelight,
from the queen of hearts watching me quietly in the upper deck balcony
sometimes I do suspect, I’m an actor in a well-scripted live divine comedy
when I look back at that frozen slice of time and try to defrost the senses lost
now enough with the metaphors, the motivation that I wrote this letter for
for you to know that the music help us carry on,
like you say a new day will bring us tomorrow…
* ’cause your beat plus my melody makes me speak of l.o.v.e. eloquently, so evidently
’cause my beat plus your melody makes me speak of l.o.v.e. eloquently, so evidently
Labels: song/ lyrics
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
時夏時間来るか?? x[
[Mood:] Angry and confused[Listening to:] Isn't it Beautiful(Suteki da Ne) by Ritsuki Nakano
SUMMER TIME WHEN WILL YOU COME? --
私は従ってうんざりする性交の病人、そうある。 実際に、私は私のお母さんにとても疲れ、私の生命の皆いる。誰も私のようではない、物はI偽りなく愛私を常に言うことがわからないし、断念しない。 そして皆私は従ってに近いあるならない。私は実際にその恐ろしいか。 その悲しいおよび病気か。 私はなぜこうすれば扱われ続けるか。事はなぜどうしても方法私によってが今度ばかりはほしい行くことができないか。 私は私がそれを失おうと思っていることを誓う。
I am so fucking sick, so fed up.. really, I am. Tired of my mom and everyone in my life. The ones I truly love do not understand me or always abandon me.. and everyone else just isn't close to me. Am I really horrible? That pathetic? Why do I continue to be treated this way? Why can't things just go the way I want for once? Why must I be surrounded by such low life people? Who hate and criticize me for nothing? Why must I be judged and not reasoned with? Why do people keep doubting me and putting me down like I just don't mind? They are THAT insensitive! These people.. they're suppose to be friends! And I can't find new ones because everywhere I go, every bodies the same. And no one won't except me.. they just try to change me and mold me into how THEY want me to be. Fakers! All of them. I wish they would all go away..
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Damn! I never knew how much people liked my music, I was making a new playlist and uploading songs on Imeem. So I went through my own music section and saw about 30 new comments i've never seen before, it was weird for me. All of them were saying, "Oh! Thanks so much for uploading this! I love this song! Can you e-mail it to me?! Here's my e-mail, thanks!" or "This song is pretty awesome! E-mail it to me okay?" -_-;; It was like 10+ email addresses in every comment, xD The funny thing about it is, some of them won't be getting it :0
The playlist I made I put on this page :) It's a classical kinda mellow theme.. >> Not at first, but there's a lot of those songs.. since i'm feeling so crappy. But they're all nice songs. Peaceful they all are :)
Labels: life, song/ lyrics, updates
