Saturday, June 16, 2007
6.16.07 Ugh.. life's a drag. D;
Pfft, my internet's been down = reason for no posting. But I finished my entry on 'Thee Out ^^ Check it out in the Archives. It's right under this one. :)
My cousin is here now.. her and her boyfriend. I resent what I said before, I really don't mind them staying even two weeks. They rock. WAY better than being here with my aunt. But they're only staying for four days. D; How displeasing.. T-T
My aunt.. she's bothering me already. Always doing things to make me look bad. Like.. before they arrived I was on the computer for like 20 minutes before the internet shut down again. My aunt got on and fixed the internet and never got off. Next time when she did, they had arrived. When I got on the computer, I had to get off because it was dinner. Then I tried again, but some crap thing about the computer being locked came up. My aunt solved it like it was nothing, which was weird that it locked when I got on and she knew the password.. and got off like 3 hours later. After she got off, everybody but my mom and I was sleep. My mom took a bath and I got on for like an hour. When she got out the shower she asked if I was staying up on the computer. I had a like 'no.. we have company, I can't stay up late' look on my face. So I get up 9 a.m this morning and NOT get on the computer. I didn't get on until 12 and everybody starts waking up. My aunt is the first one that says.. "Oh, everybody is up. Portia shouldn't be.. didn't you stay up all late on the computer? You should be sleep." -___- Then she starts telling them how I'm always on the computer along with my mean mother who doesn't know about my secret rage for my aunt. And everybody thinks it's okay to pick on Portia. I ignored my cousin because she asked a stupid question but she was like, "hello..? you're in your own little world?" then other times I gave my mom or them a look like.. 'shut up.. please' or 'why are you bothering me? Don't you have a life yet?!' but they always turned it into something picking on me. So when I gave them that look they'd say, "oh! don't bother her.. she's busy." and start laughing. Then my mom said something about how my aunt has clothes on since she usually is just lounging. So my aunt she starts talking about how we always stay up.. but I just stay up on the computer all the time. Then made a joke saying, "but don't worry she washes up." This goes on for a full hour! Wait.. I forgot.. this is right now. It's going on. It's 1:00 right now. GOD I friggin HATE her. All she complains about school for is because she doesn't want to pay my college money. I don't blame her, but another reason is because I SHOULD get a scholarship! Not just because of the money given. She's not interested if I learn but she doesn't want to pay the money? And her little way off helping me isn't real. She always does useless stuff just to say she does something. So when I'm older, I can give her some money or something she wants. Please. If my mom dies before her, I don't know her anymore. Because my mother is the only thing that keeps me close to her, or sane enough not to push her down a flight or 6 flights of stairs. She constantly bugs me to get what she wants. She's a sorry excuse for a woman, and a disappointing adult. She disgusting.. she might as well be a man. Maybe then i'd have more respect for her. She's not even a bitch. At least bitches have the women in them.. she's just sorry and pathetic. I really pity her. But even that much, i'll only give her $500 of her worth. She honestly may be worth much more through all these years, but now.. that's all she's worth to me. I can't wait to get a job and get my own money. Only if my mother was employed.. I wouldn't have to live this hell relying on her for everything. Or anybody for that matter. I want to be independent. Just four more years. I'm getting my own place. But just probably after college. Then i'd have money from jobs saved up.. and time to sort things out. God I hate every ounce of her attitude, even her good side because it's so blank and unreal. There's a thin line between love and hate. This quote comes up very nicely with her. Yeah, I love her. But as a person, she needs to be a lot better. And I don't care what title they have.. friends, family? People are always people to me. And this is why I have to live for myself.
I hope that one day she is understood. I hope one day she finally realizes how much hate I had. I hope some day she comes to better terms and changes. And hoping she changes, she can finally see me for who I am and be respected. I hope.. but I already doubt it too much. She's so clueless.. it's sad I can't even get past the thick crap of whatever goes on in that head of hers.
After typing this, I read this article. Dewi thanks for your words. I'll keep them in mind every time.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I so damn LOVE Rock Music x3
Thee Out Mods (old pic, early this year)This video is the first video and the first song demo debut for Thee Out Mods. They aren't listened artists yet, they're just coming up, so you would see them as underground performers. They don't have a CD yet, a album or anything. Just a record deal, and they just formed in summer of 2006, last summer. They don't even have all their members, lol. It's suppose to be four, I think their still looking. But I'll support them when they get up with the famous artists. :)
Crap... I think I wanna take up a major in college dealing with music.. rock music! lol.. I really really really really really and another really but times 10 LOVE rock. Especially Thee Out Mods. :D It's werid.. it's like subliminal messages, xD Cause when I first heard them, I was literally like, "Wait.... This isn't music.. how could they compare them to BLAST?! D=" But now.. I can't get enough of their songs!! *gaps* Maybe it is subliminal.. lol.. I need to stop eating sugar, i'm so hyper :/ Actually, I like the song in the video now, you just have to excuse the quality, you could hardly hear her sing. But you'll also have to excuse Sana's voice period. It's raspy, low and rough, but strong, and their music goes perfect with her voice. That and the fact that they're real musicians, that's why i've come to like them. Plus, I think my favorite song by them is a song called "Sakura". It's upbeat, like the rest of their songs. But different :) I think that's why they attract so many fans already. Their music is alive and upbeat. Doubt you'd feel what i'm saying from the video i've posted, but I couldn't find anything else, as since their not up and new yet, no one has anything, lol. BUT! You can listen to their other songs on their myspace page :)
Ahhh!! I wanna go to one of their liivvees!! ;__; Everyone says they are so amazing in concert.. and I know this because Sana (vocalist) is such an amazing performer.
Anyway, i'm just talking about Thee Out Mods this post entry, but I love American rock too.. since the Thee Out Mods are a Japanese group bred in California. Like.. I love the new song by Sick Puppies, "My World", and my all time favorite "All the same". Check their myspace's too! :]
I also love Avenged Sevenfold. ^^
Speaking of Sana.. I rock, lol. But because she does. For my resume to the NANA Day photo shoot, I used this picture.. lol. Sana told me about this when it was taken, and it's really funny because we uploaded at the same time. Pretty similar. The differences, I had on white boots, have short sleeves, a u neck instead of a boat neck, I have fishnet driving gloves, she does not, and I have a swede hat instead of leather. Oh! And the biggest difference: she has head phones and I have... a very sharp knife >_>Meg from the NANA Day ECC group asked if I needed her to come to speak with my mom. Letting her know everything, and how safe i'll be, lol. Meg's 18. And Tabatha's boyfriend is like.. 23, lol. He's the oldest with Robert right under him at 22. So.. Kei, Tabi's b/f is 23, Robert's 22, Tabi is 19, and Meg is 18. The rest are younger, with the youngest age being 14. My mother and Reamy's mother find this age difference "weird" and "awkward". So we agreed to do a meeting for the parents. :x Meg wanted to back me up because she didn't really like how London was dogging my picture saying it was inappropriate to Tabi.. trying to get Tabi to dislike me? Inappropriate?! London is 14 and dresses way too unclothed, but I didn't worry about it, as it wasn't really my business! Slutty cow, yeah I said it! She's a slutty cow. What is she in the 7th grade?! I'm a junior! I don't dress like she does! She really has balls, this girl. Trying to make fuss with me when I have so much dirt on her! I can break her in a million pieces, then we'll see what's "inappropriate".
Anyway! *ahem* Back to rock music :D
Yoshiki (Bass), Sana (Vocals & Guitar) and Kenny (Drums) :]
Sana has her hair cut now! :o But considering, she looks good with it cut :] More punkish, haha.
Anyway, here's a bit about them and who they are :)
Sana has her hair cut now! :o But considering, she looks good with it cut :] More punkish, haha.
Anyway, here's a bit about them and who they are :)
Thee Out Mods was formed in the summer of 2006 with three Japanese rockers SANA(Vocals), YOSHIKI(Bass), KENNY(Drums) as the band produced by Ace (lead singer of Tokyo Smog) from 7 Samurai Records.
SANA's straight and ironic expression of the youth generation is powerfully combined with the band's intense rock n' roll sound.
Their sharp, stylish, high energy performances have earned them a committed fan following in Los Angeles, even though most of their songs are performed in Japanese.
In April 2007, they toured to support LiN CLOVER (with former members of GACKT Job), highlighted by a knock-out performance at the famous Slim's live house in San Francisco.Currently, the label has been receiving various offers for them from events, conventions, magazines, radio stations, etc. across the country.
SANA's straight and ironic expression of the youth generation is powerfully combined with the band's intense rock n' roll sound.
Their sharp, stylish, high energy performances have earned them a committed fan following in Los Angeles, even though most of their songs are performed in Japanese.
In April 2007, they toured to support LiN CLOVER (with former members of GACKT Job), highlighted by a knock-out performance at the famous Slim's live house in San Francisco.Currently, the label has been receiving various offers for them from events, conventions, magazines, radio stations, etc. across the country.
Now pics from Thee Out Mods "I like to Bang Tour" @ Slim's San Francisco (Official Photos!)
IMG1# Yoshiki
he's really hot in this picture *.*
IMG#2 Band
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Yoshiki's always making funny faces, ahaha. ^^
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I like to "bang"! hehe.. reminds me of Trigger by Trapnest
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Sana rocks. ^^ Like a real life Nana Osaki, haha.
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Again with the faces? Kenny this time :]
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Sana ♥
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The guy with the hat playing guitar, it's their new manager, and his name is Yasu, xD Seriously. But they don't know why that's so cool and very ironic. They really are the real life BLAST :D
IMG1# Yoshiki
he's really hot in this picture *.*
IMG#2 Band
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Yoshiki's always making funny faces, ahaha. ^^
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I like to "bang"! hehe.. reminds me of Trigger by Trapnest
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Sana rocks. ^^ Like a real life Nana Osaki, haha.
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Again with the faces? Kenny this time :]
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Sana ♥
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The guy with the hat playing guitar, it's their new manager, and his name is Yasu, xD Seriously. But they don't know why that's so cool and very ironic. They really are the real life BLAST :D
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