Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Wishy washy.. x(
You know my June 15th post? The one where I was complaining how if I don't go to camp i'll be pissed off and angry? Well.. the doctors wouldn't sign my medical release form for it because I hadn't had a well check, so without that I couldn't go.. but my mom got a slot in to get it signed. So now, the camp staff sent out information on what we'll be doing and what's going to be happening. Omg, I read it, and I just know, this is going to be hell for me. I regret ever wanting to go so badly. I mean, I never really cared.. it's just that I thought, why not have the experience and why not get the chance to meet new people and do new things, right? I just thought it wouldn't hurt. Now I have to sit through all this crap for a week.. and the teenagers there are really going to be into it! And i'm gonna be the only one suffering and pretending to love it. Ugh.. I think Broadway is lame to the 90th power. I only like the wardrobe department, because I love dressing up and make-up. And I didn't even think we were going to be doing that! God, what the hell was I thinking when I agreed to this? I didn't even really think about what we're going to be doing!! Ahhrrgrrrrrr!! *dies*Things from the letter and my answers:
Quote 1: "Kids from across the state are preparing for a week of intense singin', dancin', and theater workshops. Before you finish packing your bags, we want to remind you to bring comfortable non-constricting clothes and soft-soled sneakers or dance shoes for class. No jeans, sandals, or platform shoes will be allowed. Also, take a tip from the pros on Broadway...Leave your jewelry and valuables at home!"
My issues: Omg.. my whole wardrobe for this thing was those type of clothes! I was going to wear my sandals and heels.. my skinny jeans.. UGH!! I have to change my whole weeks worth of outfits. And I got rid of my dancing shoes and tights after play rehearsals ended at school.. I can't wear my jewelry.. I can't bring my digital camera??? ;___; WHAT'S THE POINT?!?! I should be able to bring my camera.. but it's still messed up from NANA Day. =(
Quote 2: "You will be learning musical numbers from one of Broadway's best-known shows, Damn Yankees. So, give the presentation a little pizazz, we suggest you use your imagination and bring along a few things from your closet that will help you "get into character". Our staff says some "1950's styles clothes" will do the trick."
My issues: T-T Omg, I don't like Damn Yankees.. and why the hell would I have 1950's style clothes?? I didn't even know we were going to be performing. I'm so stupid.. -_-;;
Quote 3: The ladies in the Nederlanders group need to always be wearing something with red on it.
My issues: Nederlanders?? What the hell kind of name?! Anyway, this group is for females 14-17 years of age. I don't even have too many things with red in it. Not nice things anyway x/ I wear dark colors or neon stuff.. ;x
Quote 4: "This year, we are expanding our popular triple-threat workshops, where you will participate in specialty classes featuring song interpretation, acting and dance. In preparation for the song interpretation workshop, please bring a copy of your favorite musical theater song to preform on the first day of camp.
My issues: Omg.. no, please. Lol.. I really don't want to sing in front of all those people! I mean.. I sang in front of people before, but they were all my friends and family.. or people who've heard me before. Plus, i'd really be fine if it were a song I liked.. I don't have any friggin' favorite musical theater songs.. and not on CD. I only have ONE I like, and that happens to be My Favorite Things from The Sound Of Music.. but I don't want to sing that song. It's basically a popular Christmas song. x(
*sigh*.. and I keep telling myself.. "Every thing's going to be good.. it's gonna be fine and i'll love it!"But it dawns on me every time.. maybe someone who really wants to be there, can't because there's not enough room. I'm just going for some bullshit reason.. what if i'm holding loose space for someone who REALLY wanted this? I'm also wasting big money. How can I love it knowing that I really don't? Knowing that i'm ruining someone's chance just because I wanted to "check it out." I feel like a spoiled brat.. even if I didn't really want this and I know it's wrong. It sucks.. I hate feeling like a snobby rick kid.. something destined and GOOD better happen while i'm there!! If not.. I just can't except it.
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