Thursday, May 03, 2007
Love is the strongest word I can think of..
First post for May; last month of school. Three more weeks..
Right about now, I feel like crying. And not for anyway bad reasons. I'm actually so very happy.. happier than I've been in years. I've had a crazy day.. but like an hour ago, I stopped my long long talk pouring out my heart to a school mate of mine. I told him so much. I told him my heart, and I know how chessy and LAME this might sound.. but I feel so free now. I feel so good, it's like I have no weight on my shoulders.
I'm over Toledo.. I still think he's cute.. but my feelings for him are definitely gone. And I'm not mad at him anymore. And I don't have any cold feelings towards any girls he was with, and I'm not angry I never took him for myself. I'm just fine. There's no guy or girl I like, in yet.. I feel so in love. I just love everybody, and just can't stop smiling. I want to go to all my enemies and school mates I don't even know and hug them. lol. I feel so at peace, It's like I can FINALLY relax, and I like it. :) I guess it's because, I usually keep myself bottled up all the time, and when I do let out my feelings, no one ever listens, it makes me so angry, I hate how no one thinks of anyone but themselves. It sucks, I feel like the only sane positive person, and everyone around me are insane and negative. So I never really get what I wanna say out.. and it stays there for along long time. It's stressful. But today, I talked for hours.. and all he did was listen. So thank you for doing so. Just God for letting him be there, because I really needed it. Thanks a lot.
I'm not envious of anyone, I miss BB and Tianzhen, but it's not worrying me. I'm not complaining about how I still don't have the things I want. I'm not complaining about how my life isn't fair.. i'm not feeling anxious or stressed.. and this is the first in a LONG time. Really. I'm in complete relaxation. I think i'll go enjoy that now ^_^
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Ugh! I'm so cheesy.. xD and i'm suppose to be eating dinner -_-;;
Anyway.. um, yeah. Nothing else to really talk about..
Sometime like next week i'll be changing my blog because I want something peaceful because of what? My mood of course. I said I always change according to how i'm feeling. I'm gonna try and see if Lyla's layout works first. If not, i'll do one myself. ^^
See ya then.. ♥
Monday, April 30, 2007
Blah.. update~ x]
April 28th, I went to see Disturbia.. it was good.. more stalking and romance than disturbing things, but.. oh well.. way better than When A Stranger Calls. :D We were gonna see The Invisible or some other movie afterwards, but a fair was outside the mall and we walked over there. By the time we got back, if we saw another movie, when it ended it would have been like 1 a.m and I swore I would tape the last episode of Eureka Seven for Areku, so we walked around a bit before going home. Speaking of that.. it ended so GAY. x/ Eureka was very pretty... but it was still Gay -__- And the Nirvash is a girl?!?! Not just a girl, but the voice the speaks at that end of every episode?! How disappointing.. how very very disappointing. Less disappointing than Dewi killing himself..... No, worse. Another anime that's a better wait with a boring ending. It needed more explanation.. And like two episodes before I think, I DO NOT like how they killed all those people.. when those things fell and blew everything up? It was too sad. ;__;When I got home my mom fixed me this AWESOME Panini sandwich.. it's an Italian grilled cheese sandwich that has sort of a waffle design in the bread from how you cook it. But actually it's a brand of grill made specifically for making these sandwiches. My aunt just bought my mom one for a pre-mothers day gift, so she's been making them ever since. xD A usual one has squash, cheese of course, onions, tomatoes and bell peppers.. for it's like a vegetable grilled cheese.. but my mom left out the bell peppers and squash and added honey turkey and lettuce because my aunt and her ate it up. >> But it was still delicious! :3 Speaking of nice dishes....
DEWI!! Never sent me the foods from your Home Econs. Class.. =S That's alright, princess. I found the ones I wanted :)
o.<... Anyway, as you see, I added a label list. This is for some entries I might put up in particular. Like magazine scans, music, lyrics, videos, cosplay, etc. :) That would be all..
Labels: anime, asian, life, Reina Tanaka, updates
Popteen - April 2007// Ayumi Hamasaki
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Labels: asian, ayumi hamasaki, fashion, Magazine Scans
