Saturday, January 14, 2012

Friday NIght Outing

Mother managed to basically ruin my night nearly again... sigh. Can't take this women no where, I swear. Finally went to Nori Nori tonight, and later to a jazz lounge to see Chandra Currelley. She was perfect! Absolutely amazing, but I was more mesmorized by the talented musicians. Omg I swear in another life, I could be a groupie.. these people are way too talented and don't receive enough respect. The pianist caught my eye the most, he was too cute!! His name was Xavier :) It seems every night I'm out with my parents, the last time being at a comedy club and restaurant, there's always some fucking sexy man apart of the show, and I can't freely be a flirt because they're there... ahhh, God's wish I suppose. Smh.

Anyway my mom had a fit twice and would not leave it alone, as if she was trying to show off -.- And the second time she was tispy, so it was even more intense than the first time. Each time it was at the end of enjoyable night. Like when we left Nori Nori, I couldn't rest and enjoy what I had left because she had a fit. Then last, after the jazz lounge, which was REALLY an event one has to sit and relive, she had a fit. And that just did it for me even more, because I really enjoyed various things about my time and she just snatched it all away. Now I really can't wait to get away from her ass this summer. I really hope I can. I love my mom, but as long as things work out and she's healthy, I can't wait to step out of this country. Can't even go to another City and enjoy something without it being spoiled, so I'd be dammed if I let her cruel ass ruin my potential trip to Tokyo.

Labels: events, life

Friday, January 13, 2012

Japan Trip This Summer ♥

Things I don't like so far; skeptical things financially and personally. Plans there. What I think about shopping money. What I wish~ problems i'll run into that sucks.. what i wear, my freedom : /

Labels: events, japan, life

Sunday, January 01, 2012

New Years Eve and 2012

what i wanted to do, what i agreed to do, sams calling, what i did, my mom and how i feel now about my mom, my talk with gio opening my eyes about my future; feeling lost or at a brick wall.

Labels: events, life

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Christmas 2011

Christmas Eve I awoke to my menstrual cycle and I was already sick with whatever has been wrong with me.. ehh.. mother nature granting me with her share of lumps of coal? I'm just a tiny bit glad I did come on though, so it won't exactly bother my new years plans.... if those even work out in my favor. Late Christmas morning I had the most pleasant sleep though! Most likely the best present I could receive. Haven't had a warm, deep, comfortable sleep like that one in too long of a time. First dosed off listening to my "relax" mp3 playlist on my phone, containing things like French melodic music, smooth jazz, Asian chants, emotional indie rock, dark orchestra music, and a wider variety of soothing tunes :) Before you know it I was sound asleep and awoke around 8am to a light rainy Christmas morning; first one awake.

The entire week I had not been looking forward to Christmas. If you were to ask me, it didn't even feel like Christmas was nearing. But that very morning for some reason I was hit with warm spirits which I wanted to share with everyone. I knew it was too early to wake my family, so I spent two hours cozy in my warm bed texting nearly everyone and their mother sweet Christmas messages lol. It seems even the people I didn't really favor, stopped talking to, and have had recent problems with I forgave, because I sent them warm honest greetings too. Some rocky relationships with some I payed an apology to and hoped they have been good. All didn't respond with such kind or honest words, but I really didn't mind. I just was deep in the spirit, which is very odd for me, haha, but it made me feel great, spreading positivity and giving to others. This year, my family received more gifts than I, and I was alright with that, because I wanted to give back to them. I'm actually wishing I would of or could of given more, actually. All I really wanted was to have an enjoyable time with them, which I did, but this lasted for a short time.

I was in the middle of having a really nice laugh with my mom after a long period of joking around, talking with her, my aunt and my uncle about old memories. My mother and I are really close, but she's not really interested in things in my personal life at all, so it's seldom we talk about my interests and she's actually into it. She ended up asking about something that had to do with Japanese and we began a very serious talk with my uncle about it. I was enjoying the conversation a lot, so much that I went to show her somethings upstairs, but when I got back, she was talking to my other aunt over the phone so I waited patiently for her to finish. I was really anxious to continue our conversation! But she went off for over an hour or so and I over heard her doing what she normally ends up doing with my aunt... talking shit, about her other sister and myself. Now I'm in a slump and pissed off because I was having a really nice time, and it's Christmas day, but you go off and gossip about me to the person who doesn't even really like me. I had been fine all day and excepting of a lot I normally don't. To remind you, I'm also still sickly and dealing with cramps, and emotional, so that really crushed my spirit. I don't even want to be around her now. And I started thinking in my normal spoiled ways about the presents she gave me this year. Well first off, I turned 21 this year. My birthday, which is suppose to be the most joyous, was the WORST, and she didn't even get me anything for it or sympathized with me. I wasn't expecting anything for Christmas, but the things she did give me reflected her fake disinterest and the more I thought about it, it pissed me off.

I'm into Photography, I have been for a while. But it's not new to me at all, and I'm at a stage where the only thing you can give to me to help me along is a better camera, or a decent editing program. Instead, she gives me a beginners book on taking pictures of people. -_- First off, I already took and passed plus a photography class where I already have two books on photography that are way more advanced than the one she gave me. How could you not know that already.. buying that book is either an insult to me or letting me know you never pay attention to what I do or show you. Next, she gets me a Calendar full of Japanese paintings. Which is nice if it was anything like the style of art I actually like, or I was in need of a calender! I'm a 21 year old, smart phone wielding, intermediate Japanese student. Why would you not get me a nice English to Japanese dictionary, or a nice poster of my favorite Japanese artist, or a cheap CD of a Japanese singer I like or don't know of, or a cheap calligraphy brush for my Kanji I had mentioned all semester, or a Japanese app for my phone, or something Japanese styled I can actually use, since that's what you were going for. What the hell do I want with a calendar? Maybe if you never got me one before that would be a nice novelty of beautiful artwork, but I already have that and this was nothing like the style she already knows I would like. How would you not know that, mom? Pfft. Major fail. But, the messed up thing about that is, I didn't care about that then, because I was more happy that she loved her gifts, and spending a nice time with her before she started conversing with that evil women. Wtf did I do to deserve such harsh words? And why would you even be talking about that today after receiving such wonderful gifts and having such a nice time? Pfft. Don't even get me started on how she insisted on me getting my aunt an expensive gift set of body stuff from her favorite brand. I already knew what my aunt wanted! She isn't interested in crap like that, and I saw it in her dissatisfied face when she opened it! Making me waste my money, that she shit was not cheap! Shes the one that pushed me to get it and wants to talk shit about me always buying things or being a bad daughter or some crap. Now she wants to act like she's so concerned with what's wrong, like I didn't hear you talking shit about me, get the hell out of here. Whatever, I'm done with it.

Having the Christmas spirit was nice while it shortly lasted, and I still hope everyone else had an enjoyable time~

Labels: events, life

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Nori Nori, Ice Skating, and expenses?!

Talk about today's fun~ talk about dentist and money and trip I wanna do over the summer :/

Labels: events, life, school

Friday, March 05, 2010

Mid-semester Break in full swing~

First break my first year of college just started today~ they call it Spring Break but it's not spring yet.. it's really just a week out at the mid semester point. Not doing too much as my big plans start the week after the break ends.. which is Momo-Con!! :D I'm excited this time more than ever because 1) i'm staying in a hotel during con..finally.. and a great one, with a suite!! 2) i'm staying with all the cool ass people i've been waiting to meet and hang with 3) an old school mate of mine will be at the con as she's new to the anime world but she's interested in it so that'll be great! lol 4) awesome hot asian guys.. no need to say anything else on that.. xD 5) I will have business cards to give out and a new camera to take real cosplay pics 6) And we'll be partying the whole weekend.. with the addtional momo fun; korean karaoke, hitting up famous shaved ice cream place in Hong Kong plaza, making home made sushi rolls and dessert shots, bubble tea, and sleeping in style~

Until then, actually during this break i'll be at Ty's house helping her make her clay and bead jewelery to sell for the con.. and hopefully calling all my unnies in other countries, and being an art nerd that whole weekend. Going to club and movies with friends coming back from out of city/state schools, meeting with friends I haven't seen, mom's birthday, friend's birhtday and getting ready for momo in my own way~ the past weekend was my close friend's little sisters' birthday dinner and her mom and friend made us eat fried oysters, frogs legs, fried alligator and king crab sushi (actually this one was my choice since I liked it..) OMGosh, I already dislike seafood.. I mean I rather eat our own insects than the ones of the sea honestly. The gator and frog legs tasted like chicken, literally, lol. The oyster was how I thought it would be, horrible. The sushi was of course the best, oh and I wouldn't try to mahee mahee because I'm a hypocrite lol. I thought it was wrong eating dolphin but not frogs legs and alligator, lol. I'm just glad they didn't order mussells and calamari.. double yuck.. well.. before tasting it anyway.

Another note: It's been snowing still... a lot. It snowed again Tuesday this week, so I cam-whored is movie star vintage dress, lol, and took random snow pictures~

Labels: college, events, life, poine's pictures

Friday, July 24, 2009

Noraebang ♥

The title.. it's so random. Lol. It's all I feel like doing though. That word.. it's Korean word for Karaoke.. but i'm contemplating on which one sounds cooler... Karaoke.. it's so common, it's no longer a Japanese word.. so I'll start calling it Noraebang? hahaha. Wow.. so much then so little has happened to me since the last time I wrote here. Um.. college.. it starts August 17th? Wow. My summer was a lot of wasted time.. it went by in a flash.

So. To as far as I wanna date back.. the beginning of July.. the 4th. Took some pretty great and epic pictures of some local fireworks I wanted hours to see. I'll just post some, and if you're interested, in which I hope you are, to see the rest, check my DeviantArt gallery please.



Speaking of photography.. I've been planning a photo shoot.. a girls night out theme.. for fun. I always wanted to do a shoot with more people but never got a chance. Gonna start small and only use 4 people.. but that's a start. Planned a lot.. put a lot into this. So I really hope it works out. I plan on doing all this this Tuesday.. so I should have at least some stuff up by the week after. I'll put all the details and story and background into the final finished photos and post it up here whenever that's all done.

Um.. today I self taught myself how to arch eyebrows because i'm tired of wasting money I don't have... so yea, bought my own damn razor and looked at some tips.. think I did pretty good. So good, I went out and took my drivers test (questions) just to get my picture (the one on the permit). In which I failed.. LOL. And now I have to wake up early tomorrow and drive a long way to do the part I failed over. Pfft. How awesome am I?

Oh, so I camwhored in the dressing room mirror to celebrate my failure.

Um, loving 2PM more than ever.. and more music. Music is so great... so are hot guys.. funny stupid dorky guys who happen to be sexy. I guess that's why 2PM are such hot commodities. ♥ I have no experience with them though. I honestly have like zero game.. and no nothing about flirting. I'm starting not to care though. After you go through a relationship gone bad and drama for so long, you stop caring about what guys think about you. So yea... that's about where I am. I'm gonna laugh at how much of a dumb ass I make of myself. Why not? Nothing to lose. I think I rather have fun being a complete failure and learning from it than trying too hard and not succeeding AND being uncomfortable.

Ugh, did i mention I am in the middle of rebelling against like everyone? lol. really. People have been bothering me more lately that usual. Maybe i'm so tense because i'm doing into college soon.. August 17th. I can't believe how quick it all came.

Labels: art, asian, events, fireworks, life, music, poine's pictures, school

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

High School END

I graduated May 23rd :D Yay.. whoopie and all that shabang. Well.. I didn't get into the college I had been finally wanting to go to.. GA St te, so.. I had planned to go to Georgia Perimeter.. which is a two year school. The whole point in going there is basically to get a good start in. I didn't get accepted to GA State because my test score for the graduation test didn't meet the limit.. missed it by 20.. -_- Yeah yeah.. don't really think those tests are accurate messures of your skills anyway, so who cares. The good thing is, this two year school doesn't require the tests, you just have to have a good enough GPA from school, and that I have. Plus, you can transfer to whatever school you want from there. And since they have Japanese classes there, and it's cheaper and easier, it's like it's like i'm getting a crash course of college like before going to university :3 The only thing now, I have to send them my final transcript so they can let me know i'm admitted in before it's too late :/

Anyway, small update on prom (since i do not want to get into it): failed to do after party plans, but did have my own little party x3 Okay.. rode in a limo with my friends.. had a blast. Just to inform you, me and my date didn't really know each other, me and him (brian) had only knew each other prior because he recently started doing our yard work. Yep.. perfect lifetime story, took the hot yard boy to prom. LOL. Seriously. But we were w ell aquainted before and got a long great, plus it was so last minute since my bitchass ex-boyfriend, turned around and switched dates like 2 weeks before prom. -_- That's okay.. yard boy back up xD

Anyway, the only thing that sorta messed up my prom was, Brian was NOT a dancer. A slow dancer..okay, but when the shake your booty songs came on, which was most of the time, he was not with it :/ Now.. i'm not such a dancer myself, but sheesh, I do know how to follow the beat, and I do know how to move! And it was so awkward leaving him.. ugh.. i should of just went to the dance floor alone.. that way I could of got someone to dance with. Kinda messed up you wanna dance, but your date, who can't dance, won't leave your side, that way, no one else will but in. D:

Anyway.. tell me why, toward the end of the night while voting for prom king & queen, I saw MY name for prom queen. I was like going down the list.. "mmm.. jasmine.. mm natalie.. mm portia... mm.. PORTIA?! O~O wtf?!!?!?!?!?!" Lol.. so naturally, I voted myself and started campaigning late as hell. I mean, if I KNEW i was nominated for prom queen, I would of definately used my salesmen skills and OWNED them. lol. Um.. random.. prom food was gooood :3 They had skewers and shiskabobs, and shrimp baby cakes and chicken, and sweet meatballs and salas and this huge delicious fruit bowl. They even had the home made ghetto punch where you can totally spike it with alchohol x3

So.. after they called the prom queen nominees out and I lost like I knew I would, we left cause we had to turn in the limo, lol. Um.. we went to Waffle House and Brian made up for his lack of feel for music by buying me LOTS of yummy food and feeding it to me like a pretty guy in a romance comedy :D My friends were eating it up.. i thought it was cute and funny. DAMN that food was good.. but also, we saw some guys that graduated from our school last year that we hated (except one hot guy i use to crush on) that kept sexually harassing us. It was funny at first because they seemed so desperate, but it got a bit annoying when they started grabbing at us. I was starting to punch the shit out of one of them. Then it rained so we rushed out, dropped in on an after party, then dropped people off, then went back to my best gay friend's house and chilled watch an old movie. Then I fell asleep on top of my date on the couch. I wonder why he didn't bother waking me up.. -_- Oh yea.. he was liking it!! lol.. we flirted and stuff but then it was like 5 am, so he took me home and stayed over for a drink and headed out. All in all, it was a good night. Oh.. did I say I was going to keep this small? Mm.. got carried away x/

SO! Moving on the last week of school: Graduation practice was crucial!! Soooooo annoying and a lot of waste of time. Mostly because I had to sing in front of a grumpy, rude, chilish, senior class at 9 in the morning for a week, and practise everything else for like 6 hours.

Other things that week including the senior picnic, senior recognition day, and yearbook signing. Those pictures are down below, enough talking x3

Labels: events, life, poine's pictures, school

Saturday, April 25, 2009

I'm still alive!!

Labels: events, poine's pictures

Monday, April 06, 2009

So it's Spring Now

I guess it seems i've been away a long while, but in that time i've actually had entries building up in the drafts. I haven't been thinking about blogging, but now that I'm doing it, i'm feeling quite happy.

Um, Spring Break is here and I've already been to the beach. I just got back from Jerkyll Island, Georgia on Saturday and I guess I had fun. It was a school field trip for a club competition. The people went because they won 1st - 3rd at the regional competition in February. I won 1st and regions, so I went to state. I won 5th at state. Now that my sound bad, but at state, the winners from ALL the regions compete, and it was students from 27 different county schools. That's A LOT, and I placed 5th out of 6th? That's pretty awesome, I say. This happened to be my 2nd beach trip, and this time I didn't get sun burnt, yay~ Just wanted to put that out there, lol.

Every competition and officer training we have a dance, so we headed to another resort to shop and I got a cute dress and necklace for the dance. I can't wait to get the rest of the pictures from everyone else camera. But anyway, here are my pictures in my new fav dress :3


At our hotel, the beach was 2 minutes away right in back. ^^ It was beautiful except the day we got there, it rained, but the rest of the days were nice. Sadly I didn't get enough pictures of the beautiful resort, but I'll just show the ones I did.

-to be updated- April 25th :)

Labels: events, life, poine's pictures, school

Sunday, January 25, 2009

So far so good♥

Soo.. this week of the Presidents inauguration, was a wonderful wonderful week. :)

Monday- No school
Tuesday- No teachers were at school.. watched the inauguration with the school, chilled the rest of the day.
Wednesday- Wasted the day really, lol. x3
Thursday- Camwhored, wore a cute new outfit at school :)

Got flirted on by my ex, lol.. and his friend. I don't know if that's big to you guys but that's great to me, hehe. Got my hair done later that day.
Friday- Didn't go to school.. ended up just chilling at home.. yay, heheh~
Saturday- Went out to pick up my friend Naimah's present for her 19th birthday. Went to Wolf Camera and got a new Nikon. Got a new purse and 3 pairs of earrings at Target, hehe♥
Got home, packed, got ready, left for Mariatou's house, the house where all of our group was suppose to meet, waited for the other girls to get ready, and then we all left to a house party thrown for Naimah's b-day out in camp creek. We jammed like hell in the car to some songs i've never heard, LOL. They were nice. Anyway, arrived, Naimah looked amazing again. Saw some of her good friends I met before, mingled, danced a bit, ate, gave presents, had a nice, interesting time. Was mad though that my aunt wouldn't let me take my camera, so, I didn't take pictures. But they had cameras so.. hopefully that means I'll get the pictures from Naimah.
Sunday- (morning.. 12 am+)
We all found out we were going to this club out on Buford High Way.. forgot the name of it.. it was an African club. Oh yea, because Naimah's from Senegal so like all of her friends are African, seriously. But it was cool because I can dance to their music, lol. I should, it's of my background.
Anyway, we all got in the car and headed for the club. Got there, it was cold as heck. They asked for ID's but.. we didn't have any, they let us in anyway, lol. So.. started off kinda lame.. but people started crowding in and dancing started to get a little fun. To make a long story short, I danced with a couple guys, including the birthday girl's man about 3 times, lol. Wow.. that makes me sound whorish. But I always have like a hard time dancing with guys so this made me a lot more confident. :)

So, after a while, this one guy, Alajie, he got me while I was resting to come dance with him. Tell me why me and him got extra personal on the floor and danced straight through 5 songs. And don't let me forget to mention all of the songs were full length, and two of them were SUPER long. Like 7 minutes long, lol. I nearly passed out. Sad, right? So out of shape. But he got me again and we danced two more songs before the night was over. We both got tired by then and just circled on the floor holding each other, lol. It was sweet. When we realized it, we started laughing and he came and sat by me. After awhile, we left and I got to ride with him back to the house. Me and him flirted in the back the whole ride. We exchanged numbers and stuff. ^^ When I left he tried to kiss me, but I wouldn't let him. Lol.. he's so cute though. He was like, "wait.. before you feel insulted, you can't blame me for trying.." xD Oh geez, well he got out and hugged me but wouldn't let me go afterward! lol.. he was all like, "No wait, what if we don't see each other anymore?!" LOL!

Later that day, we texted and talked most of the day. And we just got off the phone a while ago. ^^ Oh, and he calls me 'Miss Portia', lol. Wow. Honestly, I'm just like so nervous around him from this point on, even though I know he's into me. But i'm afraid I might mess something up... not too skilled in this game you know.. x/

Well but anyway, glad I met a cool new guy. Oh yea, and he's already graduated and has a car and a job.. so.. upgrade! xD

So the messed up and weird this is, my mom dated an Islander when she was 17. Guy from the Virgin Islands. And I dated Theo when I was 17, who was Jamacian. Then she met a African guy at a house party with a lot of other Africans later. Like how I met Alajie at a house party with a lot of Africans. Then she goes on to tell me, they were both whores. Which she did say about Theo.. which was true.. got if you're catching on, this is bad news. But if this all plays out and I do follow my moms fate with guys, next, i'll be dating a guy from New York, lol.

Labels: events, life, school

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas x3

Nothing much to say~
Really disappointed because the main gift I wanted to give my mom for x-mas I can't give her.. so that pretty much ended everything for me.. hm. I'm still hoping things don't go entirely wrong kinda like last year, where the things I wanted, I didn't get, lol.. so spoiled.

Well I mean, after all, after you turn 18.. people stop giving you gifts.. so the only thing you get maybe is cash, lol. Then, it's not all about the presents, the things I had planned with friends didn't all go as planned. :/

Ah~ I won't worry too much about it.. i'll just sleep nice this Christmas Eve and edit this after Tomorrow :3

Labels: events, life, nobuta wo produce, reviews

Friday, November 14, 2008

Two weeks after halloween..

So.. back before October 12, when I was suppose to be singing for the coronation, Mr. Carter said I was covered for the Senior Brunch on Nov. 9th, which was last Sunday. I have a song I made up like last year right before the summer break but didn't finish, called "My Name Is Woman". Well, originally for the Senior Brunch I was going to sing some cool jazz song to match the theme, I had no intention of performing a self-composition.. but since I decided to go with that idea, I finished it and practiced it almost everyday before the brunch. Like three days before the Brunch, stupid, late Mr. Carter decided he really wanted music to the song, so he asked cutie teacher from one of the other schools, Mr. Sterling, to be the music.. since he plays guitar.. :)


Um, I have to say, I wasn't too pleased with him bringing that up so late, especially since I mentioned having back up music before.. but I LOVED working with Mr. Sterling.. he's so adorable to me.. and I've never had my own music played over.. especially by someone else, so that experience was definitely amazing! Like seriously.. you have no idea how cool it is to hear a song you made up, played instrumentally! And I sung with him! And omg, Mr. Sterling is like the cutest lanky white guy..LOL. I'm so gay. Me and him talked about rock because he told me he was use to playing rock, not anything jazzy.. we talked a lot.. him and another hot teacher kept telling me how awesome I was and an excellent writer.. ahh.. smiles across the room. If my friend's weren't around so much at the time, i'd definitely be flirting.. I don't care if he's a teacher.. he was young though. But chill out.. it's not like i'd ever do anything, lol..


Moving on.. sadly Mr. Sterling couldn't preform with me.. but the performance turned out to be a HIT, and omg, it's Friday and people are still praising me! lol.. Hey, I like praise, especially for something I did that I was very passionate about.. but omfg, I hate being a celebrity. People are literally requesting my song at school.. or waiting on my next single.. like i'm some hot new artist. And the bad thing is, the teacher's aren't even stopping them.. they get into it too. I guess you guys are like...... um.. how is this bad?? Idk.. I've just never been the type to feed off limelight.. especially when it's brought out of like no where.. that's why i'm not a social-holic. I don't like big groups.. mostly when people you don't know are coming up to you asking you to sing and asking stupid questions.

ANYHOW, so directly after my standing ovation, parents are swarming in asking about the song and telling me to copyright it. Also asking if I could come to their church and do something at a hotel and stuff.. and recently our class president gave me a proposition. She said since so many people liked my song and request to hear it, I should be the vocals as well as the MC for our schools 2008-2009 talent show/ fashion show. And she also gave me the idea of announcing at the end of the show, the idea of performing for open mic/ karaoke Friday's at C lunch my self-composed songs. Like.. all the ones I want since I have so many laying around :) That's so awesome! lol.. I can't wait to do that :3 Just as long as people pay attention and aren't rude ^^

Labels: events, life, poine's pictures, school

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Homecoming week ahead..

Distraught: deeply agitated especially from emotion.
Yeah... that's what i'm feeling.

Today was a wasteful day. Actually, most of this whole week was wasteful, starting with Wednesday. Today was our coronation and I've especially been anticipating it since two weeks ago, for I was to perform in it by singing. All the days leading up to the Coronation, starting Wednesday, I started practicing my song that the person over it, Mr. Carter, gave me, Beyonce - Flaws and All.

I had 2 days to learn it fully and one day to practice my performance. I went through hell studying that song and preparing for the Coronation. But in the end, some new girl from California, Kiera, ended up taking my place and singing my song, only because she had a better performance, might I add was absent at the actual Coronation. So was her song... since she served it no justice.. I would go into how wasting my time really pissed me the hell off.. but that's not what currently bothers me.

What been going on for like a month now and over, me and my boyfriend have been having A LOT of down falls. What makes it even worse, after we settle it, it doesn't even last a day before we (really he..) act like bastards to each other. This last talk.. I really thought he'd be better finally. Especially since I let him know I don't feel like a girlfriend at all, and how he pays more attention to his friends, females and guys, than his own girlfriend. He understood, and so I thought.

The only reason I went to Coronation was for him, my friends, for the hell of it, and to see how it went. Mainly the first two. So the fact that I was still pissed about being booted out of Coronation, and I still busted my ass to be there for them, and that shit still didn't turn out good for me. AT ALL. Another thing, an outfit wasted :/ But more importantly, the ONE thing I would of liked is to at least get a picture of my friends, and be welcomed by my BF. I didn't get to see any of them, and the pictures I did take, were messed up. Then, I know my BF was tired and bothered, but he acted like a total ass. Not mean, but because he wasn't the least bit concerned about me. Like always...

Also, my aunt was being fucking annoying, and my mom a bitch for no reason. I don't need this shit. I need a fucking outlet. I have nothing to turn to when shit like this or worse happens. And it's getting quite tiring.

And to top fucked up things off, I forgot to go to my locker and get my book I needed to read.. *sigh*

Anyway, I am very much looking forward to homecoming week. I hope this week starts something good and enjoyable. I hope me and my BF actually do better, and I hope nothing goes bad. Even though I won't be able to attend the Homecoming game, because I'll be at a lame ass competition I promised i'd go to for a club i'm in, I hope I can go to the Homecoming block party! :D It seems like a cool party, so HOPEFULLY, that'll suffice :)

Enought with being excited, too busy being pissed off.

Labels: events, life, school

Saturday, January 12, 2008

2008; NEW YEAR!! / 1st week

So, my first week of school..

Tilford's not in Graphic Arts with me anymore.. sad part of the new year.. but he's still in my 7th period; Accounting.

Naimah isn't even in any of my classes anymore D: And Shante is only in Accounting.. I have first period with Mr. Hollis now..Trigonometry.. but I learn more than I did before.. so i'm fine with that.. also with Mr. Lee all my friend are out of my class.

I no longer have to retake World History :D And I have a new class with Mr. Lakhani called Ethnic Studies.. it's basically another perspective on History, instead of what is out in the open.. really nice so far.

Ms. Kelley's class is the same.. different people.. blah blah.. umm.. Ms. Gladden's class is still the best.. Tayanna isn't in there anymore, which is sad.. but I still have my other friends.

Spanish is totally different, but it's about the same.. I do miss my old classmates though.. =/

And I think that covers it on school..
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X-mas was not as pleasing as it has been over the years.. maybe because I'm getting older? Maybe because no one wanted to spend money? But I received Jan Kurotaki's Everybody Cosplay photobook.. so I'm good.

New Years eve was stupid because I was mad my mom wouldn't let me go over Marteshus's house.. but the next day I went shopping..

After New Years I received Ayumi Hamasaki's 10th Anniversary CD+DVD+Photobook, GUILTY :D Sadly enough, the DVD's regin code isn't compatible with our DVD player. T-T We're trying to find out if anything can be done to work it.. if not, I'm screwed.
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In other news.. What about Ayumi Hamasaki?

Even without me posting a blog about it, I'm sure you all know she's come out with another album that was released January 1st, entitled Guilty. Well i'm happy to own it :] But now i'm sorry to say after the release of this album, bad news was out about Ayumi. Please click this link to find out..

And moving on.. these are just scans showing the making of Ayumi's newest videos.. and scans from SCawaii!! Magazine :]

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

A welcoming thanks giving-

Yesterday, me and my friend Kai were discussing whether or not she could and/or should, spend thanksgiving with my aunt, my mom and I. I don't have a problem, my mom currently doesn't like her, and my aunt likes none of my friend but like 5 or something. But after our argument last night, I don't think it's going to happen.

Today is the last day of school before Thanksgiving. We actually should of got out on Friday, but this school system's ridiculous like that. Anyhow, yesterday was suppose to be my presentation for American Lit, but we didn't go to class because of a 3 hour long unimportant test; one that has saved me so far.

Um.. I would like to take this time to talk about more serious issues now.

I have a BIG, HUGE, RIDICULOUS dilemma on my hands. x/ One that involves this blog entry; 2 weeks Japan vacation. I'm sorry, I would appreciate it if you would read that first, if you don't know about it. Okay, on with it. I don't know if I should go to Japan cutting my Junior term short, or stay here and continue my Junior term.

Reasons of support & the disadvantages-

WHY GO TO JAPAN?:

- I've been wanting to go out of the country and I get to do so sooner than I thought and no one has a problem with it!

- It's also the place I've been wanting to go to for a long time.

- I get to experience being in a new environment and see new things in a totally different part of the world.

- I get to see lots of Asians xD Which is awesome because I get to see a lot of the fashion favorites I've been gawking over up close! x]

- I get to stay 2 weeks away from everyone I know. That's great for career purposes and living experience.

- I get to represent myself as an American to Japan. Lol.. it sounds stupid, like I could care less about the US, but I mean like, "And here's Portia from the US!" Is just awesome x) And plus, I'm helping my school system for being apart of the Friendship Force and going to Japan. Like I'm representing that. And also doing my college rep some good :3

- I get to meet people and stay with them and experiencing college dorm life with roommates x]

- And maybe more...

DISADVANTAGES:

- I'll never go to any graduations other than my own, in high school.

- I won't get to see my friends graduate. Most of my friends are Seniors, not Juniors. And even if most of them ARE, I still might not see my friends in any grade level because next year the branch school buildings are being built and they're moving the seniors out to other schools in the district. Lord knows what the hell will happen and who I end up with x/ If these people are going to be done, I intend to see it all the way through. The end of the year is always the best too.

- If the school is changing and my last year I'll be moved to another school.. I want to be there when it happens. I want to be there to get whatever is going on. Who wants to leave the school year early and come back to confusing and bothersome issues you don't have insights on? And it's my senior year.. I need everything I can get, it's important, and knowing my school, they'd screw me over. I don't trust them. I don't have time to be doing all kinds of crap just to get settled.

- and so on..

So yeah, kinda stuck between them both.. and I have to make up my mind soon. x(

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Sunday, November 04, 2007

November 4th {♥}

I haven't blogged in a good 2 weeks and a few days.. been really laggy.. didn't want to at all :/ Plus this weekend, including Friday, i've been dreadful on finishing up my Atomic Model Theory Chemistry Project.. UGH.. all that crap = Hell.. The model went down the drain at the last minute.. UGH! I can't procrastinate on anything anymore.. this sucks.. plus I have another one due on the 19th in another class.. which I hadn't started on yet T___T God I hate my slacker-would-be-procrastinator mentality x/ And to top it off, my stomach hurts REALLY badly.. it's getting on my nerves, I want to just quit. Right now I just finished my Oral presentation part of the project.. gotta re-do the model and power point.. felt like blogging a bit to relieve stress..

So yeas.. I may invite Marteshus and Kai and another girlfriend of mine.. then I told them they could bring 1 friend of theirs to the photo shoot.. rather it be a male for modeling.. or another female to be apart of their picture. Because Kai suggested every picture have a different theme to it.. or one theme but each picture be apart of the entire theme. :] I don't know of a date yet, but it SHOULD be this year. It may actually be this Saturday, because Kai already confirmed she could come whenever, and Zhakari may possibly be coming to my school's homecoming, which is this Friday. So why not have it the next day right? Marteshus can come, and the extras aren't NEEDED, but we'd WANT them. The only problem is, this Friday is suppose to be Emily's Halloween after party.. after the public one at comic con. And that starts at 7:00 pm.. also my fucking homecoming! Damn! Why couldn't it start like at least at 5? :( See, the thing is, we were planning to just go to the public party at 7 and stay until like 10 pm.. it ends at 3 am originally. So around 10 we were all just gonna head over to Emily's house and do whatever there :) But since homecoming starts at the same time.. and ends like at 10 or 11 pm.. I won't even get to meet them there. I mean, I could go straight to Emily's house from the game, but then I won't get a chance to see the party at comic con. There's no point in paying $10 and staying for however long it is. Emily should have her party the next day at the same time! Damn.. x(
Oh, and here are the CRAPPY pics from the Coronation.. x(

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October 22nd

The very next day I camwhored like crazy in the bathroom.. :3 I'm very happy with those photos.. it really reminded me of L from Death Note or more like Joshua Christopher from Chrono Crusade; Rosette's little brother that went crazy.. I had on lounging pj's just like his.. and since I looked kind of dark it reminded me more of L.. plus the white baggy shirt x] But I named the picture album, House of Mirrors, because they were all bathroom photos taken in the mirror :] It was Tacky Day at my school for Homecoming week and I had on a medium amount of black eye liner, and shimmery gold eye shimmer.. then a reddish one on my eyebrow bone.. so it looked cool xP

Here are the pictures in the bathroom;


Earlier that day I edited the pictures I took the day I got my hair done for the Coronation; Saturday. Remember my October 13th post were I was ranting about wanting to do photoshop and how at the moment I just really wanted to know how to do photo manipulations on the eyes?? Well this girl, Christina, is excellent at Photoshopping eyes and photoshop period! Plus she's an excellent photographer and a beautiful model! She taught me how to do photo manipulations on eyes like she does.. and it turned out good for my first time! :3

Here's are the pictures;

October 24th

Today, I was in my Graphic Arts class blogging.. even though I never posted.. but I was blogging in there because the day before I couldn't.. OMG.. it was fucxing freezing in that class! And it was also career day/ professional day for Homecoming week, and since I didn't have a profession where there was a certain outfit, like a nurse, or cook.. and I didn't want to just dress with a suit like I do every Thursday.. I wore my short Chinese dress and said I wanted to be a massage therapist.. or a Chinese Interpretor. xD

Why I couldn't blog the day before: My aunt that lives with us went up to Ohio last weekend and brought down her sister; my other aunt Pam. She always has something to say about someone's living, or how she doesn't appreciate something, and what she doesn't like.. we live here. Me, my mom, and my aunt. We do what we do.. and that's the way we live. Who is she, a guest, to come down for like four days and start complaining about the things we do. Do we go up to Ohio saying things about her living? Not to her we don't! So like one of the things she kept doing is complaining about the computer being on and no one using it.. and saying things like, 'why don't you all turn it off? It's sending all those radio waves and killing your body..' OMG.. okay first of all.. i'm on the computer.. and what's the point in shutting it down if i'm about to get on?? She wants to turn it off and when I get on in 3 minutes for me to turn it back on? What the hell for?! I just wanted to slap her and tell her to shut up. So all her complaining, my mom just kept making me turn off the computer.. even when I was on T___T And then i'd leave the room and come back, and she's be on the computer playing cards :o Damn how wrong.. She'd even turn off the GUEST room computer.. which she's suppose to be on.. not the family computer! Even if she IS family.. she's a guest first.. lol. Kidding.. but I wish =/

[EDIT 10/25/7:27 am]

After school, my mom, my aunt and I went to the market.. at first I didn't want to go because I hadn't been on the computer and there were things I wanted to do, plus I hadn't eaten. But the only reason I did decide to go is because they might have went out to get something to eat, and I know my mom wanted me to come. So we don't go the way I like, so I'm already mad, so then when we get there, it started raining and I didn't have anything to cover me, plus my hair was getting fuzzy. So I stayed in the car. They said they were only getting like 5 or 6 things and it would take no time. I ended up falling asleep and since I was uncomfortable, I woke up like an hour raining.. it was raining harder than last time and they still weren't back! I was thinking, 'they should defiantly be back by now..' but it took another hour and a half for them to come back. I still had my Chinese dress on.. nothing else, and it was so cold! Much colder than it was in Graphic Arts earlier.. and it was rainy. I couldn't get out the car. At some point it had stopped raining, but I still didn't wanna come in the store because there was no point. Of course I was cold, but It's also cold in the market, and I didn't want to go in the first place because of all the people.. I was still hungry.. there was no point in going in, so I just waited. (edit later)
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October 26th

Didn't buy my tickets to Homecoming at the school because none of my school friends were going.. but Zhakari's mom ended up paying so it went well. :] She picked me up with Zhakari on the way to the game.. and since she didn't plan on taking me home afterwards because of her after party, her mom graduated from my high school, she offered me to just spent the night at their new house. My mom agreed :] I packed my things and jumped in the car. The game sucked ass! We lost!! Homecoming of all games! 0 - 51 u____u Wow, when they say our football team is sorry, they mean it =/ But I saw a lot of last year graduates. :D And my teachers dressed in regular clothing with their friends.. lol.. that was weird. I mean, all of my teachers are new, so yeah.. first time seeing them out and about x)

When we got there, we couldn't find a spot.. it took us like an hour to find one. When we FINALLY did, Zhakari's mom made us lug around this cooler full of sweatshirts and cap with the school stuff on it ;/ It was cool at first because we came in late and no one saw us, but once we went out later, BOY was I embarrassed.. i'm so glad that guy friend of hers offered to take it from me. *sighs*

So anyways, jumping around.. after getting away from her mom we talked to some people Zhakari knew and headed to the concession stand to get something to snack on.. that's where we saw Bryan and Brandon :D Brandon went to her elementary and Bryan met her year before last out of the family.. i've known them both because they go to my high school.. so it was weird that we all knew each other but didn't know, lol. After talking and standing right by the entrance, Ashely and Peaches came in immediately rushing over, lol. We all went back to our seats and sat together enjoying our company as the lame ass game got worse. :D After a while of mingling, peaches and Ashely left, then it was just me, Brandon, Zhakari and Bryan. All of a sudden a lot of seniors from last year came by.. OMG, I saw Benita. I mean.. I saw her at the Coronation, but it was so hectic I didn't bother going fangirl over it. But at the game, I couldn't help it xD Damn.. I left BOTH my cameras in the car and didn't get a picture ;__; No.. my idol.. x/ Anyway, soon after the boys left and we headed out. We stopped at Taco Bell before going to the house because her mom had an after party to go to.

So we danced and talked and watched TV and went through stuff.. (edit later)


October 31st

Today, the students in my advisement class, which reached up to 50 points for having all our requirements for the month, were to get treated with pizza and wings.. me being one of them :] But our advisor didn't get any of that because the places she chose to go to weren't open yet =/ That was one bad point in my day.. I was really looking forward to that x/

Today I wore my pink yukata rip-off dress.. without the correct shoes that is.. but I changed them at home. Another things about today, I was looking forward in Aretha taking my picture for the year book along with lots of other people dressed up.. that didn't happen.. huge piss off. First, I only SAW like 3 good people dressed up today.. everybody else totally forgot that today was Halloween T_T Those bitches told me to dress up and that we all were gonna take pictures. I'm starting to believe Aretha really doesn't like me, because my outfit was the BEST out of everyones today.. but I still didn't even get a compliment from her -_- I don't think if I came to school naked she'd say anything! So at lunch I definitely thought there would be pictures.. there wasn't. And I just decided to find Aretha myself and make her take pictures.. until I found out she had left school and wasn't coming back! Here are pictures taken at home though..

Pictures I took and edited with text for today as you can see.. This pictures was also used as my layout header :]

A lot of guys thought I was a brothel house girl and kept joking saying things like, "let's go to my room.. or Oh, concubine.." and then smiling D: Pigs -___- I looked more like a geisha anyway with the make up =/ but without white face paint. And on top of the bad things.. I had to go to the freggin dentist! On Halloween!! I had to get a filling and I was numbed.. but after it wore off, it hurt like hell. WTF?! I might as well have just taken it without the numbing.. because then the pain would have been gone by now! That stuff is pointless.. they might as well say, "Well do you want pain now or later?" Because that's what you get when it wears off x(

The good things: I hung with Anderica and Bryan :D I got compliments from some people who are asses and got hated on my times. I made Tanisha speechless xD I made Mr. Lee and Mr. Hollis loving.. since they're both mean to me that's pretty great :P I got mugged at lunch, and Terry made me super happy and positive.. he's so awesome :]
After school, at the dentist I couldn't seem to find the correct waiting room, and when I did it was locked. So out of no where this adorably HOT guy says, "What's up little lost Japanese girl? Cool Kimono." At first I was still angry because I was at the dentist, so I just glared at him. He was like, "What? Nothing to say? You don't speak English well?" Lol.. I had to laugh. I told him it was actually a Yukata and he said, "Oh really? Either way it looks amazing. It's very different.. you don't see many girls dress just cool." Then he went all into conversation about how he's use to seeing girls dress slutty or normal on Halloween, so seeing me was "refreshing".. xD Omg, usually i'd walk away from that but he was super adorable, I wanted to x] Then the damn nurse came out and took me in the room. Damn! But I said bye :) *squee* Only if my mother wasn't down stairs.. god why isn't there a back door there?! I would have totally ran away with him, lol. I hate hitting it off with hot guys then never seeing them again. Then I have to go back to my neighborhood and deal with all the fucking JERKS, rapists, perverts, and snobs that live around me and go to my school! DAMMIT! No wonder I can't find a good guy, i'm surrounded by losers. x(

I felt a bit better when another nurse came out walking with her feet tight together and bowing.. lol. She made my day! She was going all into it.. she told me the other nurse that came in said, "There's a girl outside wearing a kimono!" lol The second nurse kept walking like that and doing random karate moves and other poses.. it was hilarious.. and at the end of the day she made me a fan out of pink wax paper, LOL. That was the best dentist visit i've had yet! While the doctor was working on my teeth, she made her get out the room because she was making me laugh so hard.. I almost chocked on one of those cotton things she put in my mouth.

Then we went to Taco Bell afterward.. even though my mouth was friggin' numb, haha. x)

Felt depressed later on in the day recapping last years Halloween.. it makes me mad how last year everyone was so involved and this year hardly no one was participating. Also how the people I spent it with last year aren't even here anymore.. makes me miss 10th grade year a lot more not, and everything that went on, the people who were there with me. Seems like school is getting more and more disappointing. All the good things are going away right before my eyes. A lot has changed.

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