Friday, August 17, 2007
Week One
So let's sum all of this up, shall we??First day- Still sick. Total waste of time. Sat in the Gym.. preceded in getting introduced to the new teachers and the principals of the other schools. Sat some more.. moved around.. sat there.. they ended up calling us one by one to our advisement class. Stayed there all day with the same people.. didn't even get our schedules.
Day two- Got temporary schedules.. stayed with the same people though.. no where near my friends. Brought lunch since the school lunch was so horrid. Later found out a guy I was liking is a FATHER of a two year old son. Bah.. boys suck.
Third day- didn't go to school.. realized how much a waste of time it would have been. My sickness had ridden by this time. Friend's birthday also♥
Day four- Stunner of the school.. the cutest outfit :] Saw a lot of my friends.. and enemies. Still didn't have a real schedule. My mom picked me up late.. right after it started raining D: Did I mention it was 103 degrees outside??
Fifth Day- Yay!! Finally got our schedules! :D Well.. some people. >_> Also.. ended up going to the movies with my mom to see The Invasion :) It was good, even though the originals were better.. and it didn't explain things or last long.. but i'd watch it again. So obviously this was the best day of the week? T.G.I.F = Yessir! :3
My Courses:.
Period 1: Spanish 2 - Mrs. Bertos
Period 2: American Lit/ Comp - Ms. Kelley
Period 3: Chemistry 1 - Ms. Gladden
Period 4: Adv Alg & Trigonometry - Mrs. Hollis
Period 5: Investing - Mr. Lakhani
Period 6: Graphic Arts Tech - Ms. Hassan-Randle
Period 7: Prin/Accounting 1 - Ms. Revere, J
Period 8: U S History - Mr. Lee
Period 9: Advisement - Ms. Pitchford
Period 1: Spanish 2 - Mrs. Bertos
Period 2: American Lit/ Comp - Ms. Kelley
Period 3: Chemistry 1 - Ms. Gladden
Period 4: Adv Alg & Trigonometry - Mrs. Hollis
Period 5: Investing - Mr. Lakhani
Period 6: Graphic Arts Tech - Ms. Hassan-Randle
Period 7: Prin/Accounting 1 - Ms. Revere, J
Period 8: U S History - Mr. Lee
Period 9: Advisement - Ms. Pitchford
Omg, I don't know if I should stay or get out of Accounting D: I mean.. I already have Investing and Advanced Algebra/ Trig.. that's basically 4 maths. x/ The only reason I wanna stay though is because the teacher made a good point. She was telling us when we're making our own money it's best to be able to take care of our own taxes and such our selfs instead of having someone do it for us because so many big stars got ripped off and went bankrupt because of their accountants. That's so true.. and it saves worrying about finding one and all that because you can do it yourself.. but I really don't wanna have that many maths T-T And if I get out of Adv A&T, i'll just have it next year and I'm really trying NOT to have math my senior year.
Like, at my school you can complete an extra class during the rest of your classes and/or do two over the summer so your senior year you don't have to worry about a full schedule. Meaning you can leave school anytime you want, or use that free time to get extra credits for college, or extra community service. That's what i'm trying to do this year so I can get closer to getting a scholarship.. since my aunt is like bothering me SO much about it.
My works cut out for me.. I have to work extra hard to complete my classes and still be able to enjoy life. -sigh-
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My dear lovely friend Zhakari is having her Sweet 16 party after all!! It's not too sure, but her mom and aunt are getting preparations done now! Omg, I can't wait to go! I have like the best outfit. But they don't know the theme yet, so I don't know if i'll be wearing that, but I hope I can. Updates on this later when more information forms, lol. And a picture of the outfit i'm talking about.
CIAO~♥
Like, at my school you can complete an extra class during the rest of your classes and/or do two over the summer so your senior year you don't have to worry about a full schedule. Meaning you can leave school anytime you want, or use that free time to get extra credits for college, or extra community service. That's what i'm trying to do this year so I can get closer to getting a scholarship.. since my aunt is like bothering me SO much about it.
My works cut out for me.. I have to work extra hard to complete my classes and still be able to enjoy life. -sigh-
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My dear lovely friend Zhakari is having her Sweet 16 party after all!! It's not too sure, but her mom and aunt are getting preparations done now! Omg, I can't wait to go! I have like the best outfit. But they don't know the theme yet, so I don't know if i'll be wearing that, but I hope I can. Updates on this later when more information forms, lol. And a picture of the outfit i'm talking about.
CIAO~♥
Thursday, August 16, 2007
ViVi - Volume 84
Don't have anything to blog about and I just updated my blog layout sooo.. Mag scan post! :D From the story of Glitter/Fated. Enjoy.. though the pictures don't open in a new window.. D:
Labels: ayumi hamasaki, Magazine Scans
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Okay.. disregard that x)
Lol.. i'm better now. I guess I was wrong when I said I have nothing to help me cope.. music does still work.. and solitude. It's kinda funny then, huh? I complain about being alone, but it's being alone that helps me stay in line :]I feel totally rejuvenated and completely new. What did it? While I was crying I went to the bathroom to blow my nose. The window was open and I realized how hot it was.. then I realized how I didn't see any animals around like I usually do. Then I heard some construction outside.. I realized, no matter how sad or torn up I get, lives will still go on. People will die, still make money, build, hurt, love.. so it doesn't really make a difference for me. It's totally useless to give up. It's totally useless to mope around and worry about other people because it's so many happy people in the world or people having it worse. So I realized, since no body else cares.. I HAVE to care about myself. Because if I don'.. life will still go on.. and my life would have been a waste of time :D
Omg, i'm so glad I think like that, xD I would of done killed myself by now if it wasn't for my thought process.. I thank my mother, lol.
And about the animals.. animals really do make me happy... so after I regained my pride.. I thought about how it would be if I were a Veterinarian. xD I know it's like.. REALLY random.. but yeah.. I don't know. At least it's something to take it into consideration, haha. :P
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Anyway.. also since I stayed home from school and needed a change.. as you can see I updated my layout for the month :]
I give you: Rebirth Through Destruction2007-2008 kills me..
Happy Sweet 16 Zhakari!! :] I really hope it turns out good. No problems today, okay? Please have fun my dear! All the best♥♥♥
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I am so depressed.. and I miss the days where I could just NOT go to school when I felt like it.. well I didn't go to school today and I feel soooooo relieved! Really.. you don't know how relieved I feel right now. But I always use to say that happiness is bittersweet when you know it'll soon be lost. In other words, I know tomorrow I have to go to school. I only have this one day to enjoy myself.. I hate that summer vacation ended so soon.
At school, we don't even have our schedules yet.. i'm away from all of my friends, all of my teachers are gone, and all these new 22 year old idiot teachers are here, and they don't know what they're doing. I didn't even like school that much last year, but I was comfortable with it. I had all the people I liked, never knew, hated and loved beside me. I was glad.. it was perfect that way. Waking up to something new everyday.. but knowing who's there to give it to you. I really enjoyed last year. And now.. it's only been 3 days, but I swear I feel it. I just know this year is going to be bad. I feel so out of place. I want to go back to last year, but I know I can't. It sucks so bad.
And knowing how stupid my school is.. me not doing my homework, missing all those days, half assing things.. and then i'm still an Honor Roll student, student of the month, top 10, top 20 of the school? It's like.. I never deserved this! I know I didn't.. because I never did my best! The school just rewarded me with it because i'm a good student and i'm not rude and disrespectful, and I'm kind. But it's not that I really am.. it's just because that's how you're suppose to be! And it just makes me wonder.. if I were to REALLY give it my all.. I bet next they'd be giving away a scholarship to me! I bet when I get to college, i'll be so stupid. Because they don't really teach me anything! They're just bullshitting around instead of being real teachers! Lets be serious.. I know I didn't deserve any of those things. I'm so tired of this stupid stupid school system and I wish I could go to a better school. Where they REALLY do their work. I don't even wanna graduate from this school.. it makes me hate school.. which is a shame.
And now i'm just remembering all my problems in the past with school.. all the useless things like, bullies and all that.. and then things done to help me cope. I realized how I don't have that anymore either. I use to come home crying.. my cat would always be there to cheer me up. At the time, it was like my only friend. And later I would escape from reality and go watch some anime in my aunt's room, lol. Or music would always be there for me. And last year my Chinese friend Ni would always be there to make my feel better. But these days, I don't have any of those anymore.. and now I'd just like a close friend to turn to. But I realized i'm lacking that too. So I don't know what to do. What happens when you run out of things that ease your heart? I have no one to turn to.. I have nothing to turn to.. nothing makes me feel better. I really can't stand it anymore. I wish I couldn't worry about small things like, what people say.. but now that I realize I have nothing to help me cope.. I really feel like crying. I feel so pathetic.
I use to put all that behind me because I knew I had a goal. I knew how badly I wanted a life in college and how badly afterwards I wanted to travel and be happy with someone I loved. But now I can't seem to feel strong about that anymore. And I just want to stay at home in my bed. I'm so tired of being this way. What shall I do..
