Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Tuesday*-♥
My day: It started with watching Ants in Spanish 2 and going to homeroom. Then Chemistry followed; We calculated our test average and found out what our strengths and weaknesses were. Then we did some 10 minute work and ate powdered donuts, three types of honey buns, two 2 liters, and some jelly creme puffs. Ms. Gladden was trying to make sure we gained weight before break! Chilled with everyone until the end of class.5th period, chilled with my grand daughter, Alice, lol xP
Looked at cars, got jumbo donuts, played with some guys, played some cards, talked.
Tilford's GF kept looking over at me.. I wasn't being loud on purpose and I think she noticed that. Like usually, she's always pushing herself on her own man to make me, some girl, feel bad he's not mine. Pathetic right? Like, she's that threatened? I never claimed him.. i'n never all over him. It's the other way around. I find that so funny how people can be so insulted over nothing.
But anyway, I did realize she was pushing herself on him, but I was having so much fun, and I was just like, 'Dude, we're getting out of school, chill please.' I went over to Tilford with no hesitation, I talked to him with his girl there like the friends we always have been, and went about my business. She couldn't believe it.. she felt bad. I was kind of relieved, because I wanted her to realize along time ago that she was the only one fighting for anything. It was stupid.. but whatever, that's her. At some point she really realized it because I made a comment about people taking their anger out on others because of their issues. I was referring to her and Tilford.
Moving on, lunch was crazy as usual.. bah. Went on to 7th period; Accounting. We watched Home Alone 2.. but I was just chilling with Terry and Tilford.
Terry and me are great. We get along, but Tilford and I, he's just so uptight most of the time. Mainly because of Kenya, his girlfriend. I think her up-tightness is rubbing off on him. -_-
All through the class he kept being an ass.. then I just got pissed off and started beating on him.. we got in trouble with the teacher, lol.. but she just lectured us. Afterwards, he was still bothering me, so instead of resulting to violence, I pulled my hood over my face. I had my jacket on backwards because he kept being perverted and it was hot in her class. So like right when I did that, he smacked his teeth because I stopped listening to him. So I took my hood off and narrowed my eyes at him and said, "Dude, just shut up.. you're being an asshole, I don't care what you have to say anymore.. i'm gonna ignore it now.", and put my hood back on my face. Right when I did that he took my head in both of his hands and decided to press his lips where mine where underneath the hood.. ._. I had nothing to say, I just took my hood off and stared at him looking confused. He just put a stupid smirk his face like a dirty old man and turned the other way. By that time Terry was napping, so he didn't see any of it. Ugh! I hate when he has the upper hand. I don't know if he did that because he had the urge to, or if he thinks he can get his way if he does some stupid shit like that. I sure hope not! I can see him now, "Oh, she's issed off. Let me do this so she can forget all about it." Fuck no, that's fucking insulting! He better not think that way!
I mean, don't get me wrong, of course I liked that, he's someone I like, but I'm not a simple bitch. You can't just kiss or hug or touch and do whatever a girl likes just to make them shut up or happy with you! How insulting. It's like, shit, yeah we like it, but some of us have pride! Why would I openly enjoy what you did when i'm pissed off at you? That makes it seem like, 'well you treat me bad, but i'll forget all about it when you do (fill in the blank).' Some needy idiot girls will do that, maybe his fucking girlfriend, but he forgets I'm not his girlfriend! And I mean, come on, like I don't realize behind all that glorifying, you're just in it for yourself so everything can be easy for you. I am NOT an idiot. Sheesh.
A welcoming thanks giving-
Yesterday, me and my friend Kai were discussing whether or not she could and/or should, spend thanksgiving with my aunt, my mom and I. I don't have a problem, my mom currently doesn't like her, and my aunt likes none of my friend but like 5 or something. But after our argument last night, I don't think it's going to happen.Today is the last day of school before Thanksgiving. We actually should of got out on Friday, but this school system's ridiculous like that. Anyhow, yesterday was suppose to be my presentation for American Lit, but we didn't go to class because of a 3 hour long unimportant test; one that has saved me so far.
Um.. I would like to take this time to talk about more serious issues now.
I have a BIG, HUGE, RIDICULOUS dilemma on my hands. x/ One that involves this blog entry; 2 weeks Japan vacation. I'm sorry, I would appreciate it if you would read that first, if you don't know about it. Okay, on with it. I don't know if I should go to Japan cutting my Junior term short, or stay here and continue my Junior term.
Reasons of support & the disadvantages-
WHY GO TO JAPAN?:
- I've been wanting to go out of the country and I get to do so sooner than I thought and no one has a problem with it!
- It's also the place I've been wanting to go to for a long time.
- I get to experience being in a new environment and see new things in a totally different part of the world.
- I get to see lots of Asians xD Which is awesome because I get to see a lot of the fashion favorites I've been gawking over up close! x]
- I get to stay 2 weeks away from everyone I know. That's great for career purposes and living experience.
- I get to represent myself as an American to Japan. Lol.. it sounds stupid, like I could care less about the US, but I mean like, "And here's Portia from the US!" Is just awesome x) And plus, I'm helping my school system for being apart of the Friendship Force and going to Japan. Like I'm representing that. And also doing my college rep some good :3
- I get to meet people and stay with them and experiencing college dorm life with roommates x]
- And maybe more...
DISADVANTAGES:
- I'll never go to any graduations other than my own, in high school.
- I won't get to see my friends graduate. Most of my friends are Seniors, not Juniors. And even if most of them ARE, I still might not see my friends in any grade level because next year the branch school buildings are being built and they're moving the seniors out to other schools in the district. Lord knows what the hell will happen and who I end up with x/ If these people are going to be done, I intend to see it all the way through. The end of the year is always the best too.
- If the school is changing and my last year I'll be moved to another school.. I want to be there when it happens. I want to be there to get whatever is going on. Who wants to leave the school year early and come back to confusing and bothersome issues you don't have insights on? And it's my senior year.. I need everything I can get, it's important, and knowing my school, they'd screw me over. I don't trust them. I don't have time to be doing all kinds of crap just to get settled.
- and so on..
So yeah, kinda stuck between them both.. and I have to make up my mind soon. x(
