Friday, August 24, 2007
`Bittersweet Weekends x/
With day's like these.. I have the weekend to cry, re-think, or forget about school life and enjoy freedom and solitude. Thank God for Fridays.For one thing, my Graphic arts tech teacher told me that the period I have her class is wrong.. I have her 6th period, but it's suppose to be 5th. She told me my 5th period is really suppose to be my 6th!!!!! NO!!! Oh, please no.. anything else. Just don't change my 1st, 3rd and 5th period!! That's so not fair! Mr Lakhani's class is my favorite one! D: And I like it mostly because of my classmates, so I don't want to switch periods! I rather just NOT go to Graphic Arts Tech because the teacher sucks and the class is pointless. Omg, this is the worst news ever..
That's the bitter part of the day.. there's two sweets, one being way better than the other. What is that?? Well today I came to school with Mardi Gras necklaces on.. not really.. they were just see through beads, but that's what Ashun thought they were. But anyway, my make up was also done nicely. I just had on silver shimmer on my eyes and brows, and green contacts on. Ashun told me I looked "super cute", which I told him was Kawaii in Japanese, lol.. he started calling me 'Kawaii Gal' xD I told him he looked normal just to mess with him, haha. He just smiled and started talking to me about his Mardi Gras experience and asked me questions about it. Then he told me about what happened to him and his family in New Orleans. He came to Atlanta after Katrina. That 30 minutes in advisement, I had the BEST and most unintentional talk with Ashun ever, and I loved every part of it. Lol.. because Latricia said that I wore those beads on purpose to impress him xD I totally didn't.. I wasn't thinking about him when I put them on, I don't even consider those real Mardi Gras beads, they just went with my shirt, haha.
Oh, btw.. I never really said who he was. Well.. he'd totally be my boyfriend if he wasn't such a stupid man whore.. -sigh- He's so sweet and cool.. and when I say cool, I mean real. Like.. all the other boys I liked were "childish boys". They were all ignorant, disrespectful and immature. Ashun is a earnest gentleman, but not uptight; very funny and real. Not some guy that puts on a side show to impress girls and tries to ACT like something he's not. He's adorably cute, also handsome, respectful.. he's smart, well fit, perfect pearly whites, lol.. shallow but true, watches some anime, likes more than hip hop and RnB, and he's from New Orleans.. Which is why I can't avoid him, lol. Mostly, i'm hooked to any guy with a cool accent.. but more than most, New York accents, Chicago and New Orleans ones.. make me melt like warm cheese on top of hot ice.. xD which is impossible :P
But why am I even avoiding him? You won't believe, as I couldn't and still can't.. that he's the FATHER of a two year young boy.... no joke. It's horrible though isn't it? Not only did he have this child in the 9th grade, and even NOW he's way too young.. and not only is it bad he's even doing that, and not only is it bad he has a girlfriend who is NOT his boy's mother, and STILL is trying to hook up with me and other girls.. but it's bad that I find the ideal guy who is not shorter than me, not trashy, not disrespectful, not stupid, not trying to break me down, not broke, not ignorant, not abusive, not lame, and certainly not mean... BUT happens to be a Father. What the fuck is wrong with this school?! x( Omg, i'm so pissed off about that. I'm mad he's even trying to hook up with someone else.. ugh. I want to hate him.... but it's so hard.. I mean.. if he was a jerk then it'd be easy.. but he's such a sweetty. His babies' mother doesn't even hate him for having a girlfriend and all that.. and his girlfriend KNOWS he's around a lot of girls.. i'm confused with this. D:
Even though I should shun him, I still like when he gives me the most sincere compliments, I still like when he notices things a lot of people don't, I still like how he always sits by me and takes up for me when Latricia is being a cow.. I still like how I don't choke when i'm with him and i'm perfectly comfortable, and how only half of his jokes are good but I still smile because seeing him laugh or smile makes me happy, or how random and giddy he can be, or how when he's staring at me or i'm staring at him, we catch each other every time and start laughing a lot instead of being aggravated, and how he makes me feel 10 times better when i'm not so good. Ugh.. I truly don't understand guys.. their so evil. Biting into my heart like that when he KNOWS how wrong he is to even flirt with a girl!! And I don't understand how he can do it so freely knowing he messed up so bad! I want to slap him, it's so idiotic and so NOT smart. What, because he knows what mistakes he made before, he wants to continue being careful as possible?! NO! You shouldn't be allowed to! You've made a baby with a girl.. and you're still trying to hit it off? I just can't believe it.. I wish it was a bad rumor..... and that's the bitter part of the sweet.
The other sweet is... I got my memory card for my Nikon camera and so I took a couple of random pikatures :P I'll be posting them when I wake..
Er.. like I said in the beginning.. I have the weekend to think about these issues.. and the rest of the time to take my mind off of it.
Goodnight then peoples-
Hope you enjoy your weekend♥
