Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Okay.. disregard that x)

Lol.. i'm better now. I guess I was wrong when I said I have nothing to help me cope.. music does still work.. and solitude. It's kinda funny then, huh? I complain about being alone, but it's being alone that helps me stay in line :]

I feel totally rejuvenated and completely new. What did it? While I was crying I went to the bathroom to blow my nose. The window was open and I realized how hot it was.. then I realized how I didn't see any animals around like I usually do. Then I heard some construction outside.. I realized, no matter how sad or torn up I get, lives will still go on. People will die, still make money, build, hurt, love.. so it doesn't really make a difference for me. It's totally useless to give up. It's totally useless to mope around and worry about other people because it's so many happy people in the world or people having it worse. So I realized, since no body else cares.. I HAVE to care about myself. Because if I don'.. life will still go on.. and my life would have been a waste of time :D

Omg, i'm so glad I think like that, xD I would of done killed myself by now if it wasn't for my thought process.. I thank my mother, lol.

And about the animals.. animals really do make me happy... so after I regained my pride.. I thought about how it would be if I were a Veterinarian. xD I know it's like.. REALLY random.. but yeah.. I don't know. At least it's something to take it into consideration, haha. :P
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Anyway.. also since I stayed home from school and needed a change.. as you can see I updated my layout for the month :]

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