Tuesday, July 01, 2008
July Is Anew
July 2nd :]Heyo~ I had this in draft a day.. it was meant for the date above.. x]
Today, I went to the movies with my.. semi-boyfriend, as I like to call it, and all I have to say is.. i'm very disappointed. Is this it? Is this the grand thing i've been waiting for? Forever i've daydreamed about great guys i'd fall for.. and actually experienced it with some, but never gotten so deep in it, it'd be something that two people could have. But now that I have.. there's nothing. Is it because of the guy? I don't understand.. LOL! I mean.. when i'm not with him, I want to be with him, and thinking of him and talking with him makes me happy, the best ways! But when i'm with him... no spark, no nothing.. I can't even be relieved with a kiss, what is it? Why am I not falling into his lap every chance I get? It seems so incomplete :/ Is it because I've thought about it too much, and now it's happening I don't want it anymore? Lol.. that's crazy.. I'm really lost. Then this idea came up (what a friend said): "You want something so much, not because of the person, but because you just want to be IN love. The idea of being with someone, you want it, but you actually have no one that you care for." WTF?! Is that true?!?! O_o Gosh i'm screwed up.. that can't be completely right.. because I know I have feelings for him... don't I? Omg...... i think I don't.... when I think about him.. it's not really so much HIM i'm thinking about... it's any guy : Dammit.. what to do.. what if i'm wrong.. x/
Remaining Days of June (news)
Just two things I have to mention for the remaining days of June.. One, the community service mentioned in my last post, me and my mom went down to the Herndan Home Musem and met the main director, and the place was AMAZING. Gosh, that house was so beautiful. There will be a honoring of the Herdan family this Saturday and i'll be answering phones and leading people to the main events. I am SO, going to sneak my camera and take some shots! :3
Two, OMFG! I am so happy, but at the same time kinda dissappointed in myself. Okay, here's the thing. Ever since I saw the independant movie, Saving Face, not only did the movie send a sense of awesomeness for all independent movies about foreigners and sexuality, but I totally fell in love with a song from it! And knowing me, I love discovering new music :] So.. I looked up the movies soundtrack, and ASSUMED, the song was Strange Love by some lady named Leona Naess, because her voice sounds just like the one in the movie, and the title is perfectly matched. So, it's been like 2 years since i've seen this movie, and I was ready to purchase the soundtrack just for that song and everything, because I couldn't find it anywhere else. Until one day, someone on Imeem had the song, but when I listened, it wasn't it. I thought, maybe it was a mistake.. so I continued to look. All these month, i've been searching. Then like, last week, by accident, I saw someone on a forum talking about the song.. and they say it's by a group called Cat Power, and i'm sitting here wondering........ "Why do I know this name?..." Then it hits me! Bb's blog! Not too long ago, I read a blog of my friend's, and she was talking about how she liked listening to that group! And I KNEW it was from her I heard of them, because I remember thinking it was the weirdest group name ever. So I go on Imeem and look up Cat Power, and I look for the song they said was from the movie, "I found a reason", and bam.. it's the lovely song I'd been searching for : I was speechless, LOL.. I had been looking for quite a while.. and getting involved all in the wrong artist, xD! But I found two nice songs by Leona Naess.. but, she wasn't the singer of that song. And of course for that, I feel stupid.. lol. And now dissapointed because the song is so short :o But oh well.. at least I have it. *squeeeee* x3
Here below are picture that were taken all in the month of June, from later to earlier in the month :] I hope this makes up for me being gone a bit.. i'm gonna try to blog more now..
These here pictures are old ones I recently edited just because.. The first one's from the summer of 2005, and the second one was on my birthday, December 3rd, 2007 at Benihana.. it's been cropped though, so you don't see the restaraunt..
I loved both of those hairstyles, but then I hated them both too, because curls are one hell of a thing to handle! They're the most difficult to keep intact and they don't last.. :(
June 28-29th w/ Areku ☻
We went to the movie and movie hopped, as the past Monday was her birthday.. we were suppose to go to thee Hi Musem and then the movie and then out to eat at Benihana, but plans were changed and we just went to 3 movie, stopped at Panda Express, and I spent the night. :) Tyone got a Wii for her birthday, so after the movie we went to target, best buy and Circuit City to look for cheap games. She ended up getting Soul Caliber. ^^ During all that, I bought new pantsu (lol.. panties, mind you..) at target to stay over originally, but I got some cute fancy ones, and then went over to ross for an outfit.. didn't get it though, sadly, but we did have fun acting crazy taking pictures in it :D
Lol.. her face goes well with the broke off sign.. x]
Lol.. I loved that dress.. and I got shoes to go with them, but I didn't end up buying it.. I regret that now.. :(
The next day, we went to choir rehearsal with her aunt and to church.. the hallway to their apartments reminded me of the one in The Shinning, LOL.. it was way long and empty.. very cool.. I had to get a picture.. but I didn't get a chance to show off the long hall.. after this picture, we were gonna take on in the long hall, but the camera shut off :/June 21st-23rd w/ Tae and Shanee ☺
Oh, we had fun! The first day we went to the mall together and ate at Tacobell, then treated ourselves to brownies and cookies at Häagen-Dazs! Which was totally worth it.. we scoped out guys, nice clothes, and saw friends, then afterwards, we cam-whored leaving! :3 Then we took a LONG train ride home.. x/ The next day, Shanne left, but I stayed.. we recored videos and watched movies.. I won't be putting the videos on here though.. sorry. :x
Shanee much?! :o Cam-whore!!! Lol..
On the LONG train home.. lol~
Tae's loveable but annoying doggies x]Labels: catpower, poine's pictures, reviews, saving face
